Monday, May 22, 2006
haha
still kinda like got no mood to do work
i mean im wide awake and all
and it's a good feeling but somehow there are loads of other things on my mind and im having trouble concentrating
but anyway, just now we met for pw at cartel!
yes, i love love LOVE my pw group and i feel super blessed to have mel and grace and biyang
first there is
mel who always accomodates my weird and last-minute working habits by waking up in the morning to print our gpp and she is also super nice to talk to and i totally regret not getting to know her better in the PAST FOUR YEARS! yes.. i know.. i had four years of opportunities! sorry, mel. but now i know i really love you! plus her gpp is always done pro-ly(okay. i havent opened the one that you just did but im crossing my fingers and hoping it is good!) and i love editting it! =)) and she is a source of strength cos she's always so steady and focused. well, more or less la!
then there is
grace who is no doubt the crappiest and noisest member but i love her all the same cos she makes life interesting with her ego-ness and love for suaning people. FAINTS, yes i know.. how to live with this kind of people right? but haha! can la. trust me xD PLUS she also does her work. you know, sometimes in project groups, got super funny people who completely make projects sth you look forward to, but when it comes to doing work, they like contribute NOTHING?!?! but grace isnt like that. funny + do work. BEST. i like. (actually mel too, hahhaa. no wonder i love us!)
then there is
biyang, whom we should uhhh take more care of! HEHHHH. oops. it's a bit hard for me honestly, but im really really tryingg.. except on days when my patience wears thin cos i got headache and i dont feel like pushing anyone to contribute and i get annoyed when they dont take the initiative.. but it's alright la=) at least he laughs along with us and gives constructive feedback(unlike those funny and unhelpful people i've mentioned above)
okay. my blogging style seems to have changed a little bit. i think im very easily influenced by other people's blogging ways.. but HAHHA. nvm la huh.
anyway, i was just thinking about stuff.. and i realised that there will always
always always be better, more competent, more successful and pro-er people to compete and compare with. unless we realise and know our purpose for where we are in life, we will probably never ever be contented. and knowing that purpose comes from God and hearing his calling. and although i always tell my little cell these kind of things, it is still really difficult for me to rest in this knowledge, and it is especially difficult when things dont go your way. and then you try to remind yourself that "everything is in God's hands" and "whatever bad that he lets happen, he WILL turn it around and make it good" simply because of the "loving and faithful Father" that he is... (it's coming out almost mechanical now) but it is still difficult. sometimes i can completely let go, other times i only manage to TRY to let go.. but anyway, just wanted to encourage all those who might sometimes be feeling like me, to just continue seeking God and praying.. cos that is seriously the only way=)) and you know what? you'll find Him in places and situations you'ld never expect!
