angelsindisguise

2008-02-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

It Is You by Newsboys

As we lift up our hands
Will you meet us here?
As we call on your name
Will you meet us here?
We have come to this place
To worship you
God of mercy and grace

It is you
We adore
It is you
Praises are for
Only you
The heaven's declare
It is you
It is you

Holy, holy is our God Almighty
Holy, holy is his name alone
Holy, holy is our God Almighty
Holy, holy is his name alone
***

i love this song!
yupp it just really really summarises what i wanna tell God, esp when words fail.. haha
this week has been really busy.. in the sense that i think i really compromised on time with God.. as in reading the Bible and stuff. so next week will be different. i dont know how yet. cos i've still got plans for every single night. arghhh.

monday:
met fuiyi tessa and nigel to discuss the easter service event
was quite productive i must say=) we managed to get the basics down...
much thanks to nigel for his VERY straightforward suggestion instead of our deeper-than-necessary CONCEPT HAHA.
there's so much to be done and finalized that i hope we dont get caught up in the doing, but keep our eyes fixed on God and his unlimited purposes and methods..

oh my relatives are all here for dinner alr! later!

2008-02-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

i thought of another i need/want.

actually it's another two things -
speakers and earphones! the kind that can be pushed into your ear.
hahaha

we're going out laterrr!!

2008-02-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

i have a new item for my wishlist! which would be placed completely at the bottom! xD

a pink ipod!! =D

goodness isnt it pretty!!
i've always always always wanted a pink ipod!!

2008-01-30T09:14:00.000+08:00

right im here!
haha blogging for the first time in.. almost a month.
things have just been really really REALLY boring for this first month.
nothing to look forward to except dinners and weekends..
nothing to do even when im supposed to be working (which explains why i can even be here)
and no stress, no pressure, no break-outs and no bad hair days.
i have all the time in the world to read, moisturise, pack my stuff over and over again, watch tv, surf the net, go out, play piano, read some pages of my jap tb.. hahaha oh and copy verses from the bible into my "book of favourite verses" =D

anyway, i have a bday wishlist this year!
actually it consists of things that i'll be getting anyway, so it's just a matter of time before they're striked off. anw, they are all quite necessary to a large extent.. or least i like to think!

in order of importance...
1. driving license and car.
yea. dream on, i know... but im rethinking it's colour (which is suppsosedly to be a nice pink). or maybe it'ld be a sissy princessy pink.. FAINTS. nvm there's still time!

2. birks.
that are glam enough to wear to work. my feet are dying, no matter what i wear, flats or heels cos there's no support!! grr. i miss my ugly asics which i have come to love=(

3. earrings and necklaces.
it's just an "accessories phase" that im going through..

4. makeup.
cos i will one day need to wear it and i think i NEED to start learning now faintss.

5. bible cover/pouch/protector
i wanna protect my precious moments bible, and my english-chinese bible too!! but they're of such different sizes.. i dont know how.

6. student bible/study bible
i really really really want one. i realised that they're super useful. just that i already have THREE different bibles and versions. and im not very disciplined when it comes to cross refering hehh.

7. a new fragrance.
in those tiny bottles cos they're more portable and less wasteful

8. pink/black long leather wallet
i know i said i wanted to use my current one for forever.. but umm it's kinda scratched? hahaa x)

9. watch
that i can wear everywhere and that is small enough for my bony wrist -.-

okay that's about it i guess.

hmm anw it's not like im expecting stuff this year since i'ld TOTALLY understand if we get heartpain parting with our hard-earned money!! besides im totally not looking forward to my bday this year other than the fact that i accidentally took leave! cos my mother got the dates on which we are leaving for m'sia mixed up HAHAHA. YAYYY!! im starting to realise it's a very very very good thing! xD yeaaa. but 19 years old really IS old. we've lived and breathed on this earth for 19 whole years!! assuming we live till 80, there's about three-quarters of it more to go! hahahaha rightttt.

okay time is passing so slowly. we cant listen to our ipods or music on the computer here -.- such silly rules. happy cny in advance!! and...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SARA!!! =D

2008-01-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

right.
for the first time since the A levels ended, i have NOTHING urgent to do.
or at least i think so..
besides getting a job, finishing up the little cell presents, possible army presents for the guys... pack my table and stuff.. i think i really have NOTHING to do
ohmann. okay this feel reallllyyy weird. i dont know what to do.
i feel like going shoppingg =( buttttt i dont really wanna drag anyone out on such an extremely last minute notice.
actually i just need to chill and relax.
i think i've forgotten what it's like that do that. that's why i wanna GO OUT to chill and relax. but i need to stay home as much as i need to go out!
ohsighhh

post a levels has been as stressful and even busier than the a levels..
-.-
so much for "AFTER EXAMS..."
so.. after mission boot camp, was MISSION TRIP ITSELF!
yeaaa the more i look back and think about it, the more i realise what an awesome and wonderful experience it was=)
i think things take reaallly long to sink in for me.. so im just like starting to see how things actually did fall into place, realise the reasons for certain things here and there and stuff.. yeaa
it was really wonderful la.. although lurking at the back of my mind were the dreaded US apps, but i realised that while i kinda expected a spiritual high, God drew me into a deeper relationship with him.. and that's so so much more valuable and meaningful than anything else! GOD IS LOVE.
it's hard to talk abt stuff here, im not even sure what's confidential and what's not sometimes.. so, when i tell you, then i tell you la!
=D

got back on 21 dec at like 11pm plus i think.
yupp. and went to malaysia the next day to visit my grandmother=))
and i had a slight missiontrip-withdrawal *sniffs*
missed everyone so muchhh ohgoodnesss.
okay but now not so much already haha
managed to share psalm 23(cos i heard it being preached like three times, i think, in china) with my grandmother! and i passed her the chinese bible which i got from china. it cost like like than 2 singapore bucks you know! faints haha
yea anyway one of my things to do, is to improve my chinese. in the bible sense. haha
we're going to m'sia again for cny. so yupp. maybe i'll tell her more things then=)

then we had senior camp and i dont know why, but i was sooo tired. okay actually i DO know why. i stayed up the entire night before doing the US apps so i slept only one and a half hours, coupled with the thing. GRR. no need to do anything already. faintsss. senior camp just came and went so quickly. i think, in some ways, we barely got enough time to warm up to each other? fine. i take a long time to make friends la okay. and didnt get to like open up to one another... or maybe our group just tends to share less? yea... some groups are like that, i know.. but the whole camp was FAR from wasted la=) i still had fun! i dont need to have fun in the ra-ra make a lot of noise way.. just having sara, brenda and nikki's company makes me happy alr.. REALLY! =D and i dont need to take fotos to have memories, sigh nikkifong! ahhahaha okay but i wish tessa was there. then it would have been perfect=)

as for the spiritual side, i think this camp was really really different... everyone's spirit was so ready! impressive! i guess we all knew what we were there for and all.. and you know what. it somewhat reminded me of the first church service we attended in china too! the congregation there had been so so receptive it was kinda mind-blowing actually! yea.. God's finally changing us from the inside out i think.. that's why it was kinda hard when it came to the thanksgiving session, cos some things are just so hard to describe! but ohwelll.. God transforms lives when we let him and i think we are starting to open up in that way=)

had watchnight service last night.. it was okay la. i believe completely in ending the year and starting the new one with God! that's the least we can do i think.. really glad that enghui, venetia and grace came... =) yeaa had sleepover after that at my house and then we went for lunch at hongkong cafe..

brenda avonne and sara went out without me -.- haha not like i wanted to be there la so xD it's alright! okay i shall go be more productive..

hmm prison break season 3!!

2007-12-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

hello!

i just realised that facebook is quite addictive. even if it's just for looking at photos. ohdear ohdear.. and i realised there are loads of pple that i didnt get to take photos with even though im quite sure i walked the entire ballroom at least once. and like some parts like countless times!!
but nvm. im sure the memories wont be forgotten just because i didnt take a photo at prom... right?

everything's happening too fast! i dont even have enough time to spend with everyone before next year starts.. and just to like ease into the whole no-more-school-and-studying thing ohmann. i miss so many people already! esp classmates. and wellll, random sch pple here and there.. AND i havent even gotten to talk to BASH.. =( sighhhh i just know that the next time i see bren will be at senior camp -.- and that God has been really amazing to sara=D and avonne! ohmann i barely know anything.. faintss.

i cant believe i paid 88 bucks for prom to take photographs. and the food wasnt even nice. in fact it was kinda worse than my maid's cooking -.- esp certain dishes... *shakes head* but it was fun la=)) and cheryl got miss hot bod!! xD YAYY!

anyway, after As... i started looking for a job.. and all the troublesome hair and makeup and whatnot stuff for prom. then it was off to hongkong which was smoky and crowded.. shopping was okayy. some things there are so cheap it's amazing but then i wasnt allowed to get any cheap bags cos they were "too rough" and "not elegant" in the words of my mother. FAINTS. okay i was too lazy to argue. i think the standard of living there is rather low for the avg person. their flats look so cramped and crowded.. ohmann.. BUT their LV and prada and gucci stores are humongunormous! yea. anyway go once can already la. every other person there smokes and i think i got a headache from lack of oxygen cos i was trying to breathe less so that i'll inhale less smoke...

then when we finally got back to singapore, i was busy doing all the notes and presents and all the prom-related things and i dont know. time flies la huh. so then it was prom! and the next day was mission trip boot camp!! hmm i think i've just been receiving loads of head knowledge cos we mainly had workshops and talks. nevertheless, it was really enlightening and umm educational? we even learnt how to hear God's voice.. as in it's more than closing your eyes and trying to listen real hard and there are like steps you can take to prepare your heart.. i mean we usually know such stuff but it was good to have it all spelt out more clearly =) yupp. anyway it's gonna be shared at senior camp so everyone can look forward to that! oh. God can speak to you when you're shopping too you know. yea. cool. i know. mary shared that there was still not-very-rich girl who asked God whether she should buy this top or not.. and he kinda said no cos there was gonna be a sale! and a while later, there really was a big sale and she went back and the top was still there in the right colour and size! =D how cool is that. and mary had her own esprit wallet story to share too!! ask me and i'll tell you. too lazy to relate it over here..

anyway, even though i have only like TWO (ohmygoodness, only two!!) days left to the trip, im gonna spend it getting my heart prepared.. there have just been so many things to do i think im really neglecting what's most important.. sighhh.. priorities priorities..

anw, we went for ministry night ytd and it was good la. glad to see that God touched and transformed so many lives.. but you know what. it's not just about ytd night. it's abt the entire journey of faith that extends into next year, and the next and the next and beyond.. and encompasses all aspects of our lives.. from the areas we so easily surrender, to the other parts we refuse to let go...

actually i just realised i've had quite a few like little revelations lately. like last week, while rachel was sharing, i suddenly realised (again) that it's not enough just to have God in your life, he must be at the CENTRE of it in order that we can live out the life he has planned for us. but then again, even if we sometimes stumble and make the wrong choices, it's alright. cos mary pointed out that God is bigger than all these mistakes and he will lead us where we're meant to be, even if it means taking a longer route or detour.. so yupp. no worries. repond to God's voice and make your mistakes boldly in the knowledge that God opens windows when doors close!

okay i havent touched my personal statements yet! im gonna seriously need extra portions of grace, mercy and WISDOM and smartness to get them done in time... ohmann ohmann. but it'ld work out somehow.

i'll be gone for most of the dec. 11 to 21 dec in china. we touchdown at 11.50pm and then the next morning im leaving for malaysia at 6am i think. then we'll get back on 26 dec (after christmas, i know!=( ) and the next morning we'll leave for senior camp till 29 dec afternoon. yupp. so packed.. but i brought it upon myself so whatever. im missing class christmas partyyy=( ohmann. anyway, dont bother contacting me cos im too lazy to get that intl calls/sms thing...

time to sleep.

blessed christmas everyone!! i'll upload prom pics and canoe farewell pics when i get back.. maybe next year actually... lovelove!

PS. all i want for christmas is christmas cards from the people i love most! *hint hint* you know who you are. dont pretend! xD

2007-09-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

my turn to blog!!
yayy!!
prelims are over and it's been a rather eventful weekend=D
like the most happening in ages!

so after the chem mcq paper, we hung around
ate jellyhearts andddd finally when the sun wasnt too hot we left school
planned to shop but in the end, our bags were too heavy and we were too tired so we just had lunch at pepper lunch and talked.. yupp..
thennnnn we watched ratatouille!
not bad la i guess!
the mouse is SO CUTE!
then i almost lost 8 bucks but in the end everything turned out fine(but in the most embarrassing way possible -.-) and now i have a cool 10 dollar note tucked away in my wallet!
xD
anyway we took neoprints!
and then i went to meet BASH and we were joined by other people and then we ate the crystal jade and shopped around
went back to sara's house and we watched 3 movies which were supposed to be fun and happy but turned out to be rather depressing
ohwell

anyway yayy im glad we met up
we should meet up again!
hahaa

you know what. looking back, like what nikki said, i couldnt have done it without God
as in i mean gotten through two whole weeks of prelims...
it's just quite amazing and i feel so blessed and all
i mean it's not like he BOOM! made like a certain paper suddenly so do-able and easy
but it was more of a 'im here for you always, if you just call out to me and we'll ride through this thing tgt..."
and i think that is what God's been teaching me this entire year!
=)

i cant wait to meet BASH tmr again!
yayyy!!

2007-09-18T16:16:00.000+08:00

God is bigger than
the air i breathe
the world we'll leave
God will save the day
and all will say
MY GLORIOUS!

haha when you really think about the lyrics of this song, it's like so true and happyy and comforting=D
yayy!

2007-08-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

HOHO.
there's gp prelims tmr!!
PRELIMS.
ohmann i cant believe they're actually here...
i think things take a rather long time to sink in for me, and when they finally do, everything's uhhh over..
this is the most i've ever studied for gp..
let's hope like i'll have some good content stuff to talk about tmr.. if not.
OHDEARR.
i think gp will be harder to do well for this time cos everyone would have mugged for it..

anyway the weekend has been incredibly boring, and so has the week..
ohsighh
i have NOTHING to talk about!
but we just had our last week of lessons..
yupp. like friday was the last REAL day of school and it all happened rather unceremoniously like for the first time in our lives.. i guess cos we'll still be going back as frequently as ever BUT STILL. last day of school!
doesnt feel like it at all!
hahahaha

ohmygoodness. my little brother is gonna get a boat i think!!!!
AHH FAINTS AND DIES!
cool. i'll get to row it then...
*beams*

okay la. life is really just boring right now..
but i've got more time for God and all=) and little cell..
yupp it's good spending more time in prayer and worship..
and im going for mission trip at the end of the year!!
so exciting!
i think my holiday is gonna be nikkifong-ridden AGAIN!
faints?
hahaha xD
and eye candy keep things exciting.
TO A SMALL EXTENT only. dont worry!

yayy and like what gen prayed last time,
dear Lord, help us rmb that grades and not directionally proportional to self-worth..
hahahha

2007-08-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

ohcool.
it's my little brother's birthday!
my second little brother!

anyway ohmygoodness. i was going through my econs paper and i realised that she marked sth TOTALLY wrongly.. i was talking about budget deficit being expansionary and she actually circled 'expansionary' and put 'no! it's contractionary right?' ohmygoodness i think im gonna faint
i wonder what state of mind she was in when she was marking my paper!!
and i spotted some parts i could have like squeezed out some marks, but it's kinda too late already... and it doesnt really matter.
but come on. that expansionary contractionary mistake is rather uhh unacceptable dont you think?!?!
it's like the most basic!!!!
okay but everyone makes mistakes..
oh did i mention that i have econs tuition now?
it's rather exciting cos i havent had tuition in a long time PLUS half the class is there. so YEA.
either we're stupid or our teacher's lousy. but ohwell..
at least im like gaining new insights and stuff!!
haha faints.

i think my productivity everyday is capped at ONE piece of work, or ONE hour of the day of sth
ohsighhh
but anyway.
this is week has totally flown by and i totally lost track of what day it was la.
natday celebrations were okay i guess..
just that we could have more song singing, i mean that's the whole reason why most people went right?!
i mean like a laser show is cool but very unnecessary since it just involves WATCHING -.- how meaningless.
actually it was quite a waste of time.. but dont go also cannot, that kinda thinggg...

thennn oh we has canoe cip at chen su lan methodist home on wed afternoon!
which was super fun cos i got nice kids.. but yea.. could tell they had a lot of problems going on in the lives.. and since it was like a one-off thing, didnt dare to get too close.. i mean like what's the point of getting so attached to each other and nv seeing each other again.. it'ld just make them feel sad... i think..
anyway there were loads of cute little little boyss!!!!
nicholas!
ahh faints and dies!!
=D
if i could i would totally bring them home in my bag la..
but cannot.
anyway then we had canoe cell
and i thank God that we all still see it impt to meet even though we're usually really tired and busy..
but we most of the time we go home feeling refreshed and re-focused so yayy

COOL HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK:
i got a nice long happy letter from avonne!
yayyy!
but i havent replied. but i will when i feel like or sth..
=))

umm oh and we sleptover at yishan's house last night!!
the four of us - cherie huishan yishan and i
didnt get to like talk much or anything..
but i glad we all managed to make it, with the exception of darinne..
and we baked!!
apple crumble which was rather nice and proved that we have talent cos we kinda had to re-invent the recipe cos they wanted us to put more butter than flour -.- come on. even WE know that that's like not rightt..
and we baked.. uhh little fairy cakes.. that's what they're called but that's what they also didnt turn out to be hahahaha
okay this was a bit diasastrous (blame it on the recipe la okay) but huishan finished like a few.. but she' weird so i dont know la.
the rest of us took like half a bite and yupp. it tasted like "bread, jam and rainbow dots"
ohohoh do you know rianbow dots are called hundreds and thousands?
hahaha cool. what a long name for a tiny little thing
hmmm i think we all displayed the housewife side of us ytd! cleaning up stuff, finding and using the correct tablespoons and teaspoons and even learning how to operate the cake mixer!! WELL DONE!
haha but i think the next time we meet, we're gonna hv to stick to like playing mahjong and whatnot. it is much less exhausting..

okay so then i reached home and slept somemore!
and.. i am proud to say, i went for a run!!
*beams*
yishan's mother says we're losing our baby fats at this time and i shall help to.. enhance the process by exercising reguarly!!
yayy oh yayy!
there is hope!

2007-07-29T23:17:00.000+08:00

HOHO.
do you know jeaniffer is like comogirl of indonesia!
okay la. 1st runner up. but still.
my cool classmate.
we totally saw the article in the indonesia version of the magazine!
and then she translated it for us! xD
hahahhaa yea. anw all the girls were generally very pretty...

im so glad im going to school to mug tmr..
im super distracted at home!
i dont know why!
and i need a sense of urgencyyy!!!
ohmannohmann
and i got my pink ipod!
so YAYY!
thanks bren for going shopping with me!
now we both have pink phones, wallets, ipods.. and many other things!
=D

anyway i realise that i didnt blog our very exciting last pe lesson which was eons ago
but i can rmb it rather clearly!!
hahaha cool. it was okay fun.
but very memorable *grins* and venetia was a total disgrace!!
and that's all.

sunday without big cell is very.. free.
but i think i spent too much time sleeping, lazying around and packing stuff..
and there was high school musical and because i have the bestest friends, there were like THREE people who reminded me!
hahahhaa cheryltay venetia fangkang.
faints
but yea.. i watched for a little while, but the adverts got annoying so whatever la. it's on my computer and it's always on disney channel so i can always watch!

and that's about it.
what an un-eventful week.
sighh

2007-07-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

i feel like im relying on HEAD knowledge again!!! ohdear
and since nats, i've been really REALLY numb and unfeeling
and i think that's like my greatest strength AND my greatest weakness.
ohright. that's kinda sad. GREATEST STRENGTH: ability to not feel.
hahahhahaa but anw maybe it balances out, so it isnt really a strength or weakness..

i thank God for my classmates everyday
cos even though i dont have the girls or BASH
i have them!
i've said so many times, but still, i dont know what i'll do without them!
=D

oh and did i mention. i thank God for my less-than-disastrous ct results.
could have been worse i know.
but im gonna mug properly for As
just that i keep getting distracted/having periods of ZERO urgency!!!!/keep thinking of sales and shopping esp at raffles city. ohmannohmann
focus people, FOCUS!
haha as cheryl always says...

anyway buying stuff online is REAL BAD.
just click click click and you dont really feel like you're spending any money at all.
like i just ordered an ipod online
and then within a few clicks, TADA! 400 plus bucks GONE.
ohmygoodness faints.
ouch. quite heartpain for my father but uhh..
i'll study harder!!
-nodsnods!-

anyway life is boring without training.. to put it simply.
i miss hanging out with the girls!
even though we nv really HUNG OUT. we just kinda trained tgt.
sighhhhhh. but still fun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH CHUA!!
you know i love you even though we have to share the same name!

2007-07-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

i am blog surfing now and reading everyone's blog that i possibly can
AND i think that even though nats is over, God's work in our team is still not done yet=D

i think the past 3 days have been some emotional and spiritual rollercoaster and right now, im too tired and still kinda numb(yes, i know im taking a long time..) so maybe i'll talk about it later..

He makes all things beautiful in his time...

2007-07-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

ohmann
prison break just ended.. and i realised that by the next time i'm watching it, it would all be over..
it's just kinda crazy thinking about it.
4 more days
*shudders*
so so many mixed feelings! AND i hardly get mixed feelings!
hahaha

ohwell today feels really weird. school.. and then no training which means NOTHING to do!
wanted to stay back to run in the evening, but i fell asleep at the library and i realised how tired i was, so i came back but yea..
i'll just run tmr morning
and there's pe too! xD
this week's been kinda long..
but i'ld rather it be long so YEA.
next week's gonna fly..
elisa elisa elisa!
=))
go go fight fight!

happy birthday mel!!
hope you like the cupcakes=))
i think they're just the prettiest things even though the light catcher with the pretty crystals were really pretty too
i think i have limited vocab.. but ohwell

there's fire drill tmr.
ohplease let it not be too sunshiney or hot
i dont wanna stand under hot sun in the field

and let boat-waxing be super fun!
we had our last training at macritchie on wed..
but i think i shall save all those emotions for post nats.. so YUPPP.

andddd my final biggest request:
please please PLEASE let God just keep working in our team and for our last prep(so slack, cant really call it training) on sat AND FOR NATS OF COURSE! and beyond (double of course!!)...

2007-06-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

haha cts are overrr!
so after bio, which i thought was the most do-able, we went out to watch nancy drew!
=))
my first movie in 6 mths!
faintsss it was more horror than anything and although it wasnt very wonderful that we didnt follow the class, i still had fun!!
hahahaha actually i think we're slightly screamish but ohwelll
then grace and enghui left for tuition and hannahchua venetia and i went to orchard!!
hahaha
forum is really quiet and nice=)
and full of rich families with nothing better to do but go shopping -.-
i think we should study there, then when we're bored we can visit all the cute children's shops!

anywayyyy borders and then we ate at far east!
and thennn we went to esprit where they each got like TWO belts on like 75% discount and all!
thank me and my card!
then i went home and top off the rather perfect day, there was prison break!
YAYY!

thennn on friday. oh right. i woke up super early just to go to school with my parents so that i wont have to ake public transport with my paddle
and i sat in the canteen and read a million little pieces until the physics people appeared!
ohmann the book is really really sad and the writing's very.. vivid (haha is there such a thing?) and ohmannn i cld like totally feel the agony and all and okay you must read it
then met brenda and avonne at j8 and we got our nails done!
yayy very pretty and fun and the fans are rather cool and ohplease not let it get ruined at macritchie
ohmygoodness. i just realised i'll be going there practically everyday next week

anyway
9 more days to nats!
and in 12 days time,
everything would be over..
go go fight fight!
=)

2007-06-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

Bring The Rain - Mercy Me
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of
The clouds that may loom above
Because you are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
Suffering your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain (precisely!!)
So i pray

haha not like im going through any particular painful thing right now.. but wouldnt it be super cool if we could all declare to the Lord, BRING THE RAIN! ohmann.. i shudder just to think of all the possible "rains" he could send... but yea.. bit by bit i guess we're learning to surrender=))
i think my playlist can have a huge effect on my mood!
and i've been listening to blue and bsb lately xD
hahhahaha
i think they're still the best.

today we had chem -.-
faints..
i officially cannot make calculations grrr.
and that's why maths tmr is kinda like OHDEEARR.
but nvm. 3 hours. let's hope i dont like have extra time cos i dont know how to do anything anymore!
ohdearohdear...
anyway i came home after like spending abt an hour in the library with grace and venetia talking and being unproductive..
im going for econs tuition! so exciting! i miss group tuition.. =D
thennn i watched star wars attack of the clones! and the anikin(?) skywalker is super duper cute!
actually it's quite boring la.. esp the fighting parts where i think i dozed off, BUT i woke up when he appeared of course. so yayy.
then i slept. cos i just needed to chill and enjoy life and i miss training!
and rowing and elisa!
friday please come quickly!!
there's prison break season1 on star world on tuesday nights =))

i cant wait for tmr to be over!
actually i always cant wait for maths to be over so YEA.
anyway ohmygoodness it's time to sleep!
and monday's a holiday!!!
COOL.
although i dont think i need one so soon -.-

and through the eyes of faith, i can clearly see,
GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!

cool powerful quotes

2007-06-24T07:47:00.000+08:00

All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. They will tell you no, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly. And you will tell them yes. -NIKE

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing.

OBSTACLES ARE PUT iN OURWAY TO SEE iF WHAT WE WANTiS REALLY WORTH FiGHTiNG FOR.

"To play is in the mind. To win is in the heart." Jennifer McCombs
"Once I get the ball, you're at my mercy. There is nothing you can say or do about it. I own the ball....When I'm on my game, I don't think there's anybody that can stop me." Michael Jordan

"I refuse. I refuse to lose. To be average. To fail. I refuse to die. To be afraid. I refuse to be taken. I refuse." Gatorade

"I am in power. I will not surrender. I will not retreat a single inch, and I will be victorious." Unknown

Aragorn: Sons of Gondor! Of Rohan! My brothers! I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails; when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship... but it is not this day! An hour of wolves and shattered shields, when the Age of Men comes crashing down! But it is not this day! This day we fight! By all that you hold dear on this good earth, I bid you stand! Men of the West!

2007-06-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

Win - Brian McKnight
Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I've been down this road before

I'll never quit
I'll never lay down
See I promised myself that
I'd never let me down

So I'll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall, I'll never fail
I'll just get up and try again
Never lose hope, never lose faith
There's much too much at stake
Upon ~~myself~~GOD I must depend
I'm not looking for place or show
I'm gonna win

No stopping now
There's still all ways to go
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes I know
I'll never quit
I'll never go down
I'll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

When it's all said and done
My once in a lifetime won't be back again
Now is the time to take a stand
Here is my chance
That's why I'll win ...

haha got powerful quotes, powerful movies, now got powerful song!
although i've never heard it before.. i wanna get the song!!
someway, somehow...

anyway, so far it's been an okay week.
ohyea. except for the mugging. eeks.
anywayyy, monday!
after training(we pb-ed xD) we watched drumline!!
ohmygoodness.
it is seriously a super cool show!!
like bring it on=D
but grudgingly, i admit, better...
hahahaha
BIG BROTHER IRON MAN.
faintss... and a lot of other cool teamwork quotes and yea!!
i lovelove the flight of bumblebee part!!!
why doesnt singapore have such crazily cool military bandds!??!
hmmm
so feeling happy, we all got to our aircon classroom and before i could even start a question, mummy called to go shopping!
haha yayy. just that i got only some normal stuff but wtv.
i dont care. trying on clothes made me feel super fat and disgusting and big so im not going shopping anymore until i slim down as what mummy calls it -.- faints. thanks arh.
grr.

tuesday!
cool. there's prison break at night. on star world.. and it's all the first few episodes which i havent watched so yayy. but it's kinda depressing..
anyway, went back for bio mock ct todayy! haha more for the company than anything la huhh..

okay i have better things to do than blog..
let's hope tmr is good=)

2007-06-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

NIKKI! of course i miss you!!! just that when i typed that, it was on sunday.. and i just saw you for cell and everything!! but i miss you.. dont worry!! 101% miss you! and everytime i see k*** i think of you so YEA=D

CHERIE: hahaa yea.. that plus huishan's present.. which is like still lying around in my house..

BRENDA: haha you can pass me uhh next sat now.. haha

actually i dont have much to say.. i've been talking a lot of God lately! so i guess that's a good thing..
and i think it's rather cool when elisa and i can easy row for dunno how many hundred metres and still have a good conv about God and life and stuff xD
yea..
"life is like a train ride. doesnt mean you enter a dark tunnel and can't see where you're going means you jump off the train, right? because God's the driver and sooner or later you'll see the light again! just got to keep trusting and having faith!"

i think the purpose-driven life book is really changing lives!!
YAYYY!!
=))
everyone should go read it!!

anyway i spent my entire week at macritchie, school library and home -.-
faints.
oh. but i went shopping on friday!
just that i hardly got anything except happy underwear and yeaaaaa sighhhh
my mother, on the other hand, got like SIX blouses and a pair of shoes all at one go!
grrrr.
ohwell. but i got nice hand and nail cream!!
yayy
after trying two thousand brands, i think i still like m&s so YEA.

anyway, this week.. nothing particularly exciting i think.. or at least not like i really want to mention.. so ohwellx)
i think i'll get to see my classmates next week when i go for bio mock ct!!
=D
cant wait cant wait!!
even though i still left half of the bio topics
ohmannn

not by might, not by power, but by the Spirit of God!

2007-06-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

39, 37, 32, 37, 34, 41, 41, 53, 15, 32, 55.
tmr will be a good day with GOD IN OUR BOAT!
=)
from the Lord my strength!
***

okay i just counted all the money that people owe me and it's like nearly a hundred!!!
okay fine. not yet a hundred, but stilllll... that's a lot of money to me!!
grrrr.
and that's like only the recent ones which i can rmb..
the $2, $2 plus ones i all negligi-fied cos i cant rmb whether they've paid or not.. AND not forgetting those that i didnt record!!!
GRRR.
no wonder i feel like i always have no savings!
-.-

anywayyy small cell was not too bad today i guess..
then big cell was super funny and cld tell rachel was being real patient with us considering that we were so distracted and stuff.. ohmannohmann..
then oh. i went shopping!
like minimally.. faints. cos my little brothers were there and my mother was too annoyed to go try stuff so yea.. another time, another time..
i've already set my sights on some things=)
anyway, i managed to get a top! like on 40% discount!! that's like saving as much as you spend!
hahahaha

thenn im way behind in mugging and argh. i think i left my notes under the table in one of the classrooms!
ohdearrrr.

sara's back!
yayy
let's have a real bash outing/mugging session in uhh.. rj library.. even though av doesnt like it there(why oh why?!).. or sth la!

I MISS 3M!!!!!
i bet they dont really miss me.. but nvm la!
i still miss them!!!
espespesp grace hannah venetia and enghui!!!

okay time to sleep!

everyday, it's you i live for!

2007-06-09T23:36:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY!

happy birthday brenda!!
i hope you like the wallet!
it's the nicest pink, long one in singapore i bet!
andddd the shade is most YOU!
anddd well, we have matching wallets and phones now =D
cool.
pinkpinkpink before we outgrow it!
or maybe we'll never..

anyway, that's the reason we couldnt meet you to mug in town on thursday hehh hahaha
cos wanted to get you a present that's actually ON TIME.
andd hope you like the little board.. the pink thing was done using my paddle's extra overgrip.. which is actually meant for TENNIS rackets, so that's quite... relevant?!

you're eighteen!
love life, LOVE GOD!
then everything can already!
=))

PS. sara, dont miss us so much! you should be enjoying yourself! dont worry, we'll always be here when you get back (which is like today or sth right?) !!!
PPS. avonne, send me the photos!!!! =D but dont need to blow up la faints.. hahahahhaa

2007-06-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

i just lovelovelove watching fantasia barrino sing i believe!
=))
ever felt like you were dreaming,
just to find that you're awake
sometimes after an especially good row, that's how you feel and you never want it to end!
okay i've said that before but nvm
i still like the feeling!
a lot.
and then seeing the the rainbow at macritchie that day made me think of the song again!
have you ever reached the rainbow's end
and did you find your pot of gold?
and ohmygoodness come to think of it, we totally could see the rainbow's end!
cos it was totally overarching macritchie at the 500m mark or sth!
imagine rowing UNDER a rainbow!!
COOL.
uhh just that there wasnt really a pot of gold at the end (that we could see) or anything spectacular for that matter.. it just kinda.. disappears -.-
but nvm! can imagine! =D

there's no training tmr morning!
we're supposed to rest...
but if i go to the track tmr and find half the team there, i'll totally laugh!
hahahhha I LOVE US!

bren's birthday is cominggg!
the last of BASH's birthdays...
but hopefully it wont be the last time we get tgt in a very long time.. ohdear..

i think i wanna get a new fragrance!
and it's an excuse to go fragrance shopping which is like super funn i rmb...
but ohwell whatever.

i think i can totally understand why people take protein..
because it seems no matter how and what i eat, im like taking super long to recover
and ohmygoodness.
after lunch and bathing in school today, i ended up falling asleep and i was so tired i just cabbed back home and napped again and when i woke up at 4 plus my arms were like SO TIRED.
-.-
okay dont complain.

i realise i feel weird when i dont see the canoeists often enough (i.e. twice a day during school term and almost everyday right now)
andddd every saturday night, when i finally make the transition from school+canoe to church, it feels weird..
i mean yea.. God is everywhere throughout the entire week.. but church friends arent and ohwell. it's just weird.
hmmm

***
Have you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
And the magic that surrounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life
For this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe

2007-05-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO!!
im back and it's vesak day and im blogging a lot lately =D
ytd was wonderful for loads of reasons!!
yayy
yayy
YAYYY!

elisa and i pb-ed (a shocking timing, to me la..) for 2k!!
rainbow boy! faints.
eye candy! double faints.
andddd oh how could i forget. canoe cell!
yupp. those were totally enough to MAKE MY DAY!

andd meanwhile, im trying to mug!
sometimes successfully, usually unsuccessfully.. but ohwelll
can la huh.. we're starting a whooping 4 weeks before cts!
that's like how un-last minute!

okay dinner calls!
thennnn.. OHDEARRR. no prison break tonight.
faints.
but cheryl's back from bintan so yayy!
and we had gym training today at bishan gym
which has pink walls but is too small and some lady kept staring at us like we were gonna spoil the weights and machines or sth.. -.-

talking about getting bren's present...
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
yours isnt even BOUGHT yet?!
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
hahaahhaahahhahahh wahahah
the best of both worlds! says:
YEAAAAAAAAAAA
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
xP
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
ahaahah
the best of both worlds! says:
and the things i wanted, i dont really want alr(nike bottle)
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
haha
the best of both worlds! says:
or bought alr (nike cap)
the best of both worlds! says:
-.-
the best of both worlds! says:
-.-
the best of both worlds! says:
-.-
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
we figured material things as those..narhh
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
duwan to get u
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
haahaaah xP
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
ahahhaaa
the best of both worlds! says:
RIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
☆ Ave ★ the hunger to study says:
yes right teethy

FAINTS. so i can expect to get loads of love joy peace and laughter for my bday which was like eons ago -.-
OKAY DINNER.

2007-05-28T18:28:00.000+08:00

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be okay
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

i like this song!
it's so super true and yayy.
not that it really expresses my sentiments right now, but yeaa
i do miss BASH!
ohsighhh sara's in europe, i just rmbed..
wonderful wonderful.
we NEED to meet up real soon to chill.. but.. all i can think about is mugging and canoe and then recovering (i.e. eating) and then canoe again and then mug and recover again..
i dont know how those pple train every single day!
maybe they just dont do such crazy sets like we do or sth..
yea.. cos i think i nearly died during today's training faints
and then come home, there was the horrible ach-y feeling and i could barely get out of bed after afternoon nap.. and my hands can like cramp up suddenly while im writing (hand cramp is the freakiest cramp ever!) and arghhhh. i have an unhealable blister which totally irks me. grrrr. unholdable hands. wonderful.
but on a brighter note, i lovelovelove elisa!!!
hugs and kisses with glitter, snowflakes and all the bimbo blueness in the world!
she's the best partner on the team i bet xD
just right for me, not too serious (hehhh), likes talking in between sets and still has energy to people-watch on the water! cool. *grins*
it's been wonderful rowing these few weeks and i can feel us improving! we just need cheryl and javine's strength!! GRRR. i hate being weak like that -.- sighhh
anyway, GOGOGO us! 45 more days or so? *shudders* so scaryyy..

anyway, this term has been quite mad.. but we all managed to pull through once again! and you know what.. for the first time, i was really DREADING the holidays.. yikesyikesyikes.
i miss our class esp gracehannahenghuivenetianikki!!
and it's only the first day of the holidays!
seriously, they keep me sane by going insane that kinda thingg and YEA. there is never a dull moment with them.. as we put up with each other's idiosyncracies and all, i think we've even grown on each other! yea as much as i hate to admit it.. xD
yea.. so the term came to an end with everyone's season and syf coming to a closure too!
rj's super cool cos we got loads of golds and im super proud of everyone cos everyone has trained and practiced super hard.. and yea. im sure we all deserve it so YAYYY!!! =D
but the sad thing is that, WE still have our season (which lasts like 3 days haha) and the gym was SO weirdly empty on friday and all but ohwell!

anyway, highlights of the term include:
WOMEN'S OPEN. YAYY. God was totally with us i know, and it's super cool to feel God's presence as you're rowing! like seriously.
TIMBRE. our chance to show hannah what self-sacrificial friends we are! and yeaa. not like i regret going actually so ahahha. eating in the dark's quite faints.
EYE CANDY. oh this was/is ultimate stupid and GRR and stressful and embarrassing and faints and dies. but hahahahaha face it. it provided loads of people with loads of amusement! =D
TRAINING. which happens like loads every week, but it's still counted cos every training is different and every training is an opportunity to surrender ourselves and our rowing to God and i think it is and is gonna be a milestone in our faith journey! =))
SOCCER MATCH. which is like the only match support i went for but it was super duper exciting even though half the time we seriously didnt know what was happening.. like the whole yellow card and penalty shootout-sudden death thing but YAYY! we won and oohlala. welldone!

okay i cant rmb anymore!
anyway this term i did not skip a single lesson of pe, or school for that matter!
i think i've uhhh turned over a new leaf!
cool.

not by might, not by power,
but by the Spirit of God!

2007-05-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

who would have thought that the choir cd we cut in primary5 can still be impactful seven years down the road.. ohmannnn..
was just using the songs to worship God.. and it's extremely special cos its songs that we know inside out and have every detail and note and memorized and well, songs that bring back one of the best memories actually =)
and even though i cant hit the high G notes anymore (haha faints) but i can still see and hear ms ng i think, playing the for the beauty of the earth intro and all the other laudamus te background music or wtv it's called!
and i was always amazed at how the o sifuni mungu backgrd was so simple yet so easy to get high on! =D
cool.

and to nikki gen and avonne,
you're still the best singers/choralers and everything that i know so YEAA=))
lovelove!

2007-04-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

njcc has been rather wonderful for me i think
with just rowing a few trainings with bernice we managed to get into the semis(although last in the end, nikki was the nicest to add that xD)!!
but yea. i can finally truly say i've discovered why i row.
why i decided canoe over council.
and so many other things i could be doing.
really.. the euphoria you get from rowing is just indescribable.
when you're at one with your boat, your partner, the water and never ever forget, GOD.. and it seems like everything just ceases to matter
and all that you're aware of is the glide, the way you're flyinggggg across the waterrr!!
COOL.
it's better than one million other feelings in the world and you never ever ever EVER want to it end!!
=D

thanks bernice for helping me achieve that!
and most importantly to my wonderful darlings!
your encouragement that kept me going even though i kept having to change partner and my stroke was like deteriorating -.- and so many other setbacks!
=))

so many other things to say but ohwell. nvm. here's a quote from vannn!

"There's no childhood more delightful then one poised between sport and imagination." - Eric Cantona

2007-03-18T13:47:00.000+08:00

ahh!
im so excited!
im waiting for the video that huishan made for us in 2005 to be loaded on cherie's blog!!!!!
*GRINS* =D
ahhhh!!
quickly load quickly loadd!!
although of cos i have original in a cd ~~which i dont know where it is right now~~ which i know i will be able to find if i search.. but i cant wait!!

umm and another thing koped from cherie's blog! xD hahahaha

ohdearrrrrr i should be mugging econs at the very least since i havent even finished the j2 topics, not to say the j1 ones ohdearohdear.

ytd during training...
me: i cant wait for canoe campp! =))
xinmiao: huh? why? it's not even going to be exciting...
me: ya. i know. precisely!
hahahahaha

the video is seriously like one of the nicest presents in the whole wide world!!!!!!!
=))
yayyyy!

2007-03-13T18:39:00.000+08:00

cool.
im in=)
in blogger i mean
i kinda forgot that mine's a google account and allllllllll
ohsighh

anywayyyyy
it's the march holidays!
like finally YAYY!
and finally -grr-
and i cant decide whether it's a good thing or not
but i guess we just need the rest from a whole 10 weeks of tutorials, lectures and trying to stay awake in them, training and SPAs!
so yea. im getting my rest by like watching tv and reading newsweek and the papers=))
and trying to mug at the same time..
like organic chemm. FAINTS.
i think it's really a wonder how we managed to memorize all that for promos last year!
and i still rmb all the times we mugged at the library!
recess khakis and mugging buddies
lovelove!
and when chem promos finally came, i felt rather smart just finally being able to do EVERYTHING without flipping endlessly through the lecture notes!
and i felt even better when i learnt that i got A for chem! must have been one of the first in the entire year or sth xD
so anyway, went back to look at my paper for inspiration!
yayy.

a part of me cares quite a bit abt cts, but another big part is just really -.- about it
ohsighhhhhh
andddd you know what. hanging ard james, or just the THOUGHT of it, is rather anxiety-inducing!
we must muggggg!
for the first time in my life, let me not be last minute in mugging!!!
faints
that's the only motivation i have

sunday morning little cell was good i think..
it's really nice when the girls start asking questions, even though they are the ones that are the hardest to answer...
just keep praying for wisdom and understanding la huhh
anyway i love gen!
even though she spews bimbotic-ness in EVERY direction, and you cant escape it as long as you are within a 5metre radius but nvmmmmmmmmmmm
xD
she still makes me happy!

oh and anywayyy.. the last few weeks were full of the funniest AND most-embarrassing things!
argh.
there was the changing in the toilet thing. the doodling on my OWN shirt thing. anddddd aiya. little bits here and thereeee...
and then as the term drew to a close, i got really snappy and annoyed. at nth in particular...
dont really know why. but thank God for the best classmates anyone can have.. seriously=))
always so encouraging and supportive(yes, i'd like to think thatxD), tolerant, happy and giving!
cool.
yayy!

and thennnn, there is the training we can NEVER run away from xD
that's stressful and challenging, enjoyable and satisfying all at the same time!
dont know what i'll do without the girls!
and i know we're really getting closer.. in a deeper way, not just the crack jokes and laugh till we ache way you know.. =))

amazing love
how can it be
that you my King would die for me
amazing love
i know it's true
and it's my joy to honour you
in all i do
i honour you
***

i'll stand
with arms high and heart abandoned
in awe
of the one who gave it all
i'll stand
my soul, Lord, to you surrendered
all i am is yours

okay dinner's ready..
but i sitll have stuff to say..
but the most important:

nikkifong i hope you're having a good rest at home
just wanted you to know im praying for you k...=)

2007-02-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

ohdearohdearohdear
i just changed the password AND username of this entire blog to my google one!
like accidentally! ohdear.
hahaha but not like cherieyishanhuishandarinne really use it so ohwell

anywayy, february has been totally marvellous!!
lovelove!
there was...
my birthday!
valentine's day!

and there's gonna be..
CNY!

yayyy!

anyway my class is absolutely wonderful!
ytd we won frisbee for take 5
yes. we got FIRST.
~~i think we excel at everything except academics~~
how pro!
was super excited and happy for them!!!!
i couldnt believe my ears AND eyes la!
hahahaha
and thennnnn, they organized a little celebration (no actually super big) for me!
so sweeetttt=))
thanks esp to grace nikki hannahchua venetia enghui!!!!!!!
lovelove!!!
ohmann i was super touched and surprised and happy on my birthday la!!
and ytd night, we lou hei-ed together!!!
how many classes have done that consecutively TWICE?!?!?!
xD
yayy i love us!!

and the canoeists!!
ohmann thanks elisa for the prettiest, pinkiest, loveliest birthday cake ever baked!!!!
and thanks girls for all the EIGHTEEN non-pink presents!!!!
ahahahaha was super fun opening them!!

and of cos BASH!!
for the cake and well, just being BASH!
cos i can tell you everything and anything!

harrypotter's seventh book is coming outt!!

2007-01-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

ohmygoodness. the scratchcards look so prettyyyy!! =))
yayy makes me happy!

2007-01-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

ohmygoodness!
nikki mentioned me FOUR times in her rather short post!! xD
im happy!
hahahhahaha but not just because of that la of course!
i just enjoyed reading her entry knowing that God actually used little ryan to speak to her!
how cuteee.
=))
sometimes i think ryan is like more grounded in God than we are.. hehh he's like read i kissed dating goodbye!! ohfaintsss
and i havent even read it cover to cover yet! ohmygoodness.
but anywayy,
EXODUS 14:14!!
it's on like the first page of my notebook so that we'll never forget, okay nikki?

well then, it's been a week of ups and downs and rain and sunshine and smiles and sian-ness but i guess we managed to make it through(without skipping school or pe xD) so that's sth to praise God for!
AND it totally has NOT been my week -.-
like i lost my snowflake earrings at macritchie and got hit by a ball at cluster outing and then ytd after training was a rather traumatic experience and there are loads of other things but i dont waste memory space remembering bad things so yea. i cant really think of anything else..

2007-01-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

wow.
it's "next year" already..
and i rmb last year, i made a lot of "next year i will.." comments!
hahahaa
ohmannn
faints

anyway, i dont feel complete until i know my econs results!
and when i finally obtained by username and password(both of which i lost and forgot) the system said that my results were not avaliable for checking
wonderful.
what does that mean?
that i have to wait to see it on my a level cert next year!??!
ohfaints.
but ohwell.
i think ignorance is bliss=)
like seriously..

the past week has been FULL OF SLEEPOVERS.
goodness.
okay.
let's list all the parties and sleepovers i attended so that i'll never forget..

22 dec (fri)
canoe party which seriously lacked girls but nvm.
it was quite fun la..
trying to barbeque food over a fire that wasnt hot -.-
hahaha
then we had exchange gift (which was like the highlight of the entire party) and i got xinmiao's chocolate milk truffle cream body wash - it has a very long name, i cant rmb the order of the words but nvm.

23 dec (sat)
i cant rmb what i did in the day..
oh i rmb. i packed my table and room and whatever space in the house that's mine..
then nikki came over to do the photo frames!
and we ended up painting them (which im super lousy at!)
and since they loooked rather pretty (from afar) yayy
and i love nikki!!
nikkinikkinikki!
from tmr onwards, it's gonna be nonstop nikki again till like march hols or sth!
hahahaha

24 dec- christmas eve
uhhh i think there was service in the morning..
ohyes. there was..
anddd..
ohyes i sat with the little girls in the fellowship hall aka canteen -.- and the aircon was FREEZING COLD
after that, we went out for lunch at cartel with some guys tagging along but ohwell.
how very happening.
and as much as we took a long time and many phone calls and messges deciding what to do next (faints) i went home..
and chilled awhile cos the night before, nikki and i slept at like 5 sth..
and thennn, daddy fetched me to yishan's house!
and then i rushed all the church presents and notes
and finally huishan arrived=)))
and changed out of her candy cane earrings into her candy cane shorts!
haha so cute.
and yishan arrived without cherie who had gone to nic's house
and we watched love actually
and i totally love the little boy and the entire show is just so sweet and christmas-y!
then cherie arrived just in time for all the endings and we got to wish each other MERRY CHRISTMAS right on the dot!!!
oohyayy and then we played mahjong, ate supper, opened christmas presents frm yishan
and by then it was 3 or 4am in the morning
and then we all huddled onto yishan's SINGLE bed - think the grandparents in charlie and chocolate factory
and we had our looonnng overdue girltalk
=))
what can i say
i love us!
and im so glad that we can still talk as though we've been in touch in entire year..
yupp.

CHRISTMAS DAY!!!!!!!!!
ohmann
slept for like half an hour before i woke up and had to leave for service
cabbed down (was praying super hard for a taxi!) and i arrived ON TIME!
yes. for the first time in my life, for ushering!
then there was hectic exchanging of presents
and then rushed off with BASH! okay minus sara.
we probably had one of the best meals of the year even though it was at kfc -.-
and yupp. life rocks with BASH!
and i have a new saying or whatever:
BASH will always be the BEST!
yayy
okay that sounds rather faints but nvm
i still really really love brenda avonne and sara and nothing and no one in the whole wide world can ever take that away!
so we talked and caught up on stuff... and =)) i was really happy after that
and their company was probably what kept me going
after that we went shopping at orchard to get some last minute presents..
and it was disgusting!
it was rainy and wet and we were forced to walk under the shelter where everyone was smoking.
i hate smokers.
and i was tired.
finally we reached james house!
with all the yummy food and i think i just slept through everything..
hehh

26 dec
rested the entire day
and then the canoeists came over to sleepover
and we had movie marathon and watched a total of seven movies before we were happy=))
hahhaa
anyway, i have concluded that i cant watched chinese movies.
i fell asleep halfway through initial D and that was the only chinese movie we watched..

27 dec
packed the christmas stuff.. what else? i cant rmb..

28 dec
went out with brenda and tim and spenser
all i can say is that, once is very much enough and yea.
i dont know how brenda did it so many times!
we watched flyboys
which consisted mainly of old areoplanes flying around and loads of shooting
like bambam BAMBAMBAMBAMBAM!!!!!!!!
-.-
fortunately, the lead was really cute and so were the little children
xD
did some shopping
and ohyes
i got my file.
i just felt like getting a new file, and i dont know how useful it's gonna be but ohwell. dont care.
anywayyyy, it's now the exact same one that huishan and i got in sec4=))
got a lime green one at first, but i felt so weird with it so i exchanged it for a pink one in the end!

29 dec
went for training in the morning..
oh and there was class party
and we sleptover at jason's house
=)

30 dec
service at night...
then went out for supper with loads of church pple
and then headed back to church for prayer thingy
which was not bad yupp.
and then andrew gave us a lift home!
with elson in front and gen wilma nicole heather joyce and me squished behind!
haha he can u-turn!
nice=)
and although we tried watching tv, it didnt work
so we ended up talking till aout 5am..
it was such a girly sleepover!
so much squealing! and ohfaints xD
girls..
anw im so super glad that gen's back!

31 dec
we slept in and then there was big cell
all at my house!
yayy i like.
went for watchnight service
and ended up at sara's house with fuiyi and brenda and loads of other pple
who i never imagined would come
hahaha
okay la i was just surprised to walk into the living room after '10 things i hate about you' to see so very many people
anw the movie is super funny and super sweet!!!
then we talked in room for like a few hours till 7 plus when we finally fell asleep
yea
it was nice catching up with sara fuiyi and weishan!
fuiyi especially=))
i think i only saw her like 7 times this year or sth
then daddy came to fetch me
and later at night i went to metro with my mother
and we got some clothes and earrings and food from m&s
im gonna steal the fizzy fish for school tmr!
and tada!
im here now
and im just staying at home to get myself mentally prepared for tmr
i think we're gonna have to leave the house extra early since elson's getting fetch to ac
hahaha
so exciting!

2006-12-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

im going off for church camp tmr!
im kinda excited, kinda okay.
but ohwell.
i've waited for it the ENTIRE YEAR!!!
and now it's here!
so yea. im happy=))

and i like my new slippers
and im super glad bren went with me
otherwise i think i would have taken twice as long to decide
faints
thanks bren!
and i realised it has butterfly print
faints. everything i have has got butterflies, hearts and stars and snowflakes and glitter
and lately, purple!
hahaha
the best alternative after pink, i guess

i miss canoe like mad
ohmannn
i mean the rowing and most of all the entire team!!!
i mean the girls!!
ohmannnn

anyway, i think i should sleep
im bringing a suitcase=))
and somehow, it feels lighter than a normal duffel(?) bag..
ohdear i think i left it open downstairs
means that lizaards and cockroaches might be crawling all over it now
faints

see ya!

2006-11-25T18:34:00.000+08:00

haha im impressing myself xD
all i did today was mug eat and sleep
it's rather scary but no choice
i'ld rather do it than regret later
eeks (btw, i cant put the 'eeks' face cos the html will have some problem so yea. haha)

anyway i know why i keep reminiscing
cos i cant believe i've grown so old that i have to like take S paper!
it will always be S paper to me la, not h3.. h3 is so hard to say and still rather alien
last time it used to be sth that my parents' friends children had to sit for, because they were of age..
yea.. my parents' friends' children who were very smart, taller than me and very grown up. so grown up that they could deal with sth like S paper (which i have the impression that is super duper hard)
faintssss
hahahhaa

anyway, when thoughts of how much i could be enjoying myself 'attack' me, i try to think of next year, when i will have one less thing to study for xD
HAHA

keep smiling, keep shining,
knowing you can always count on me,
that's what friends are for..

that's what's playing on the radio now
which is the only other thing i've done besides those i listed on top
crazy
i've even heard some song from the eden sol concert twice, and hung up by madonna twice
that says a lot doesnt it
sighh
this studying had better pay off!

i cant wait to go to church!!
for just a break from all these studying and all...

anyway i realised why i dont like the new songs nowadays..
cos they're so artificial!
with really really weird sounds that dont even sound like voices!
faintss
and sometimes, they dont even sing..
they just breathe musically or sth
double faints.

dinner!

2006-11-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

ohmannnnnn
i just found out that my little brother has twenty bucks worth of pets on maple story!!!!
COME ON.
im sure he's got nothing better to do with his moneyyy!!!
FAINTS AND DIES.
what an un-meaningful way to spend money!
too much money just give me la!
i got one million christmas cards to get!!
and i really really feel like writing them (sometimes when im bored i narrate what im gonna say in my head to certain pple) but there's econs to study
ohfaints
i wonder how much im gonna get
and how much bearing it is gonna have next time
sighhh
i still dont understand ALOT!
i think i need tuition
faintsss

there are so very many year-end things to think about,
but right now, im just concentrating on econs econs econs!
to think that i'll be down with one a level subject by this tues
faintsss
we're seriously getting old
and you know, ytd cherie and i went pizza hut for lunch
besides the fact that it was super duper yummy, i realised that the waiters and waitresses serving us were actually our age!!
ohmygoodness
that's like how ohmygoodness
it just shows how old we are!
gone are the days when you wonder what it is like to be 16 and above cos we're living it right now!
and it's kinda like just more and more responsiblities
-.-
sighh
i think im gonna go through identity crisis when i hit 18

hahaha suddenly remember our USFL thing at the start of sec4
HEHH
xD

you cannot measure worth by human standards, that's always a lie

you have to see through heaven's eyes!

***

the very first time you'll understand

your perfect place in the master's plan

***

your life woven day by day
is a new design of the glory God displays
on the canvas of creation
through the poem of history
in the pattern of redemption
running through the tapestry
your life in Christ can be
THE GREATEST STORY EVER TOLD
***

2006-11-22T11:53:00.000+08:00

ohmannn im so super bored studying econsss
argh
argh
argh
im going crazy already
just now i heard an advert on the radio about citibank credit cards and its wonderful benefits nd i started thinking about if you have one credit card, why would u wanna have another one. but then i rmbed mummy said a lot of pple like to hv many credit cards.. so i guess besides targetting those who have yet to get credit cards, citibank also targets those who already have
but wouldnt their demand be different? yeaa.. so will have differnt dd curves for each consumer grp (and i actually pictured it in my mind!) and then add together to give market dd. then i started thinking about how the price elasticity would differ and ARGH. all the diagrams from the textbook were swimming in my mindddd!!!
OHFAINTS
this is disgusting

and very boring
im going crazy reading about firms and costs!!!!!!!
i hate the maths part of econs
it's so confusing and i dont see how something as dead and logically strict as maths can be used to illustrate econs (which is so diverse and lively?!?!)
BUT IT CAN.
surprising, someway somehow.
argharghargh
and this paper is gonna be my h3 grade!
OHMANNNN
i keep forgetting.
but then it's only 50% (which i keep forgetting too sigh)
cos the other 50% has alr been determined from our homework and stuff..

lunchtime please!!!!!
one more hour
argh

life is boring without training
and i have hardly time to train cos im trying to mug as much as possible
i want the girls to come back now!!!!!!!!
grrr.

and i wanna go shopping for christmas presents! (marks and spencer has the prettiest stuff!)
and more cards!
and well, i havent gone out enough (not even watched a movie since promos), to me la

life rocks.
sighhhhhh

fortunately there's the radio!
=)
yea that's why i like my zen
haha they suddently played all the songs that i've been missing and havent heard in a very very long time!

2006-11-14T17:09:00.000+08:00

guess what.
im at work now
some work attachment thing with cherie
but since today's our first day, we get R&R
faintsss
which is basically just keeping yourself occupied at the computer!
ohmann sighh
im super bored now
cherie too
but at least i have econs to mug
but nvm. cherie has a birthday to plan xD

my eyes are dry
and i feel really cooped up sitting at this computer and work station or whatever
but i guess when u have things to accomplish, you dont really feel it
goodness.
i think when we go to work, we're gonna miss school life like madd
and the fact that we just like get allowance.
we dont have to WORK for money
faints
actually come to think of it, that concept is seriously rather alien to me
ohsighh
working for $$
hmmm

on a happier note!
i went shopping with mummy on sundayyy!
was supposed to get clothes for work
but sighh rather sian
so we just ended up getting underwear, as always..
and my pinkish purple/purple-ish pink shoe bag! which was kinda the only thing i really wanted
then got shorts and some collared top
then my mother got this really nice and glam pair of shoes
the kind that can bring you from the office to dinner parties!
hahaha

thennnn there was training on mondayyy=)
and jo and i are improving yayy!!
really proud of us
plus we didnt cap
xD
lovelove!
then rushed home to eat and bathe
oh and we got our windbreaker!
it's kinda like the rg swim team one..
except that it says canoe
but i think it's quite nice=))
even though it's one size too big and i feel like im flapping around in it hehh
then went nus for econs
i paid attention during the lecture!
i think game theory is rather interesting!
-nods-
then rushed off for chalet immediately after that!
it's crazy i tell you, travelling from west to east!
faints
but haha made it there in the end!
the chalet and country club is hopefully gonna be worth the money rightttt??
YES. i dont care
anyway there's aircon
and pretty swimming pools (so pretty it doesnt matter whether u play in it or not, can just enjoy it by LOOKING! yea there's pretty pink lily-like thing that rains water and loads of other cute things!)
and everything you could ever dream off

ohdear i feel fat
all i did today was eat and sit at the com
ohfaints

just went bren's blogg
ohmann
the neoprints!
yea.. we look so young!
and i would give ANYTHING to go back to those times!
we really need to have a BASH gathering!
you would think 4 pple should be quite easy to meet rightttt but NOOoo.
=(
soon soon!

2006-11-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

hello!
here i am again
blogging is sth i do when i have nth to do now
yes my life is currently that sadd
and i was reading cherie and yishan's blogs and somehow they sound super duper happy shopping and like they still want to KEEP SHOPPING (faints! come on darlings. there's a limit!) and i dont even feel like doing it AT ALL!
and i should!
i mean after been like off-shopping and off-movies for so extremely long, dont u think i should be craving going out at least a little?!?!
but ohwell i dunno.
but i think i've forgotten what it's really like to shop and stuff and i've uhh sort of "craved" it so much that the feeling's kinda dying already
-shakes head-
this is super sadd

anywayyyyy, for the next few weeks, im gonna be seeing a lot of cherieee!! xD
yayy!

oh. and im doing some cross stitch thing now
it's a pretty precious moments thing and it's supposed to be super nice and pretty
BUT it's turning out to be horrendous
the colours are absolutely horrible
faintss
nvm i'll try to like rectify it
which is gonna take super long cos i have to unpick stuff
ohfaints

okay
great
my headache's back
im gonna sleep!

2006-11-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

okay let's pray that this manages to load

actually i dont have much to say
just that pw is really annoying me
and i hope we get a B
SO THERE.
argh

anw went for sara's halloween party last night!
hahaha i liked the deco
and i was super impressed that her classmates bothered to go shopping for costumes and dress up!
ohmygoodness. can u imagine our class doing that?!?! hahaha
xD

2006-10-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

it's nearly 2 weeks (tmr would be two weeks) since promos last ended and here i am,
movies i've watched : 0
shopping: 0 or 0.5(since i went shopping for the little girls' presents that day, but it doesnt count cos i was alone AND very very much too tired to enjoy myself)
books i've read: 0
besides watching tv, training, eat and sleeping, i havent done much else
faints
and im aching like madd
but since i spent half an hour stretching just now, i think i'll be fine tmr=))

wonderful. i have quite a few things to do now
so yea byebye

oh but wait. open house was superrrr funn!!!
i mean like sewing (quite fun), befriending (also quite fun), dancing (ULTRA SUPER DUPER FUN!!) and what else.
just like that la huh.
=))

2006-10-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

im at grace's house now
trying to do pw
but my head is throbbing like mad and i dont know why!!
it's super annoying and it's totally ruining my concentration
sighhhhhhhh
and i think im being the most useless group member
cos well im not doing anything
sighh

but anw we're going for befrienders' dance later
cos well, we have to at least try to responsible pple righttttt

the weekend was insane!
actually life has been rather busy since i came back from outdoor buffet
faints
saturday we had canoe farewell which was super fun
and i think everything went rather well=)
esp cos the seniors liked our pretty, hilarious presents!
and they gave us this box of 7 things that we need to survive canoeing for the rest of our jc life
super sweet and funny!
yupp. it was nice just chilling with everyone la huh..
yayy

then saturday had small cell and big cell!
yayy finally la. after like a million years!
then went for bernard's bday party
which was quite fun too
and then went home and just fell asleep.

ohsigh life rocks la
i wanna watch a movie
that's all i ask.
!
but maybe we're watching laterrr
hahahha yayy!

2006-10-06T12:00:00.000+08:00

i want the joy of the Lord to come down
i want the joy of the Lord to fall now
i want the joy of the Lord in my life

i want the joy of the Lord to lift me
i want the joy of the Lord to change me
i want the joy of the Lord in my life

i just got back form odac camp ytd!!!!!!!!!!!
it was super duper fun!!
some parts a bit -.- cos gotta wait here wait there,
but i think my group made up for all of it!
and it was wonderful and nikki and suwan and clicked!!!
xD
-grins-
yayyyy!
i love it when i can click with people, cos it isnt very often anw!
okay. i shall not relive all our unglam memories here, cos really got no time
but it was fun making new friends here and there, and getting to know the odac-ians better..
and YUPP.
sleeping in tents, outdoor cooking..
even though, like what i told bren, have to lay down all your rights/desires? to be comfortable and clean and have nice hair, i think everyone should do this kinda thing once a year..
cos... it's only when you are put in this kind of situations that you get to really test yourself.
like there was this poster thing i saw "people are like teabags, you have to put them in hot tea to see how strong they are"!
yupp.

THE WISE ONES - nikki suwan debbie lingting darrell jonathanpoh melvyn CHARLENE AND GERALD LEONG!!!!!!!!!
lovelove!

anw it was a good break la.
but now that im back to reality, there are so very many things to be done!!!!!
faints.
i dont even have time to chill!!
and watch my movies.
i just need one day.
or one afternoon.
watch a movie, shop ard a little bit, eat a yummy tea, go kino, and then i'll be HAPPY AND FINE!
but no. there's so much stuff doing onnnn!!!
=(
sighh
okay
i need to get ready for befrienders' stuff now.
faintsssss.

oh. and another reason i love my class - they surprised us on tues night at odac camp when they suddenly appeared on their bikes!!! grace venetia alvin kevin and jason!!!
YAYYY. i was super duper happy la k! xD

2006-09-30T18:22:00.000+08:00

=(
bren cant go outdoor buffet
sighhh
i hope someone pulls out!! xD
or suddenly dont feel like going
ohplease ohplease ohplease
haiyaaaa
cos i thought it would be fun for us to do sth like that together
i mean for all that we've done tgt, which is actually like shopping and watching tv only i think
we've never really did un-pink, guyish outdoor stuff before!!
i think
except for guides stuff (which isnt counted anw cos sara's like never there?!)
ohgreat. so it'ld only be like ASJH?!?!?!!
yea.. silent j included this time
ahhsigh.
i want brenda to go!!!!!!
NOW.
grrr

im looking forward to outdoor buffet hundred times less now=(

IM SURE BREN WILL BE STUCK WITH CIVILISATION WHILE WE'RE TRYING TO SURVIVE IN TENTS!!!!!!
that's so not feasible.
it's like.
unthinkable of.
i mean i know she has other friends, but still.. it's been ages since we had a camp together!!

ohsighh
this is so annoying!
I WANT BRENDA TO GO!

2006-09-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

"Whatever I have tried to do in life I have tried with all my heart to do it well; Whatever I have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself completely; In great aims and in small I have always thoroughly been in earnest." Charles Dickens

haha that's me that's me!
or rather that's what i'ld like to be!!
xD

anyway HEYHEY!!
after a whole week of exams, which werent as wonderful as i hoped it would be, it is finally thursday night
to think i was moaning about it on sunday.. it's been 4 days already!!!
haha
just have friday saturday sunday
and come monday night
HAHA.
just wait and see!
xD
~~im gonna have so much funnnn!~~
haha actually i'll be at nus for econs the entire afternoon and possibly evening, so ya -.-
ohwell. that's life!
but nvm
im gonna study super hard for bio!!!
YESYES!!
-nods-
im so not gonna let ms chua down again, cos bio somehow always falls to the bottom of my priority list and yea
i think in some ways, we bio pple have it best xD
so dont complain.
a whole 3 days to mug.
might not be enough, but it's still worth a try right?!?!?
YESYES!

anw i have developed a new routine.
that can only happen during promos period!
after exams, i have lunch in school with my classmates -insert happy grin- xD and chill a little while
then i'll cab home and watch tv
and watch tv and channel-hop and use the i-squeeze until i find something nice and satisfying!
there have been LOADS of nice shows=))
and i managed to catch the sisterhood of the travelling pants againnn!!!
at the expense of mugging chem but ohwell. haha
oh and judging amy on hallmark is really very very good too!
i totally love it!
hallmark is really wonderful!
anw its some courtroom drama that tackles all the family problems and reminds you to count your blessings and it's super uplighting!
oh and amazing race is not bad too!!
even though it's probably staged!

okay bio!
seeya!

oh today i ate chocolate malt icecream with grace at swensens
it was super duper insanely nice!!!!!!!!
i can still taste it!
and we had loads of fun laughing (as usual) and myclassmates are like quite unglam -LOOKS AT HANNAHCHUA- /uncivilised - and venetia- /embarrassing -and grace-/girly -and nikki- /gentle -and enghui- all at the same time xD
lovelove!

2006-09-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

Pride by Elmo and the Goo Goo Dolls

(Sung by Johnny)
Elmo, whisper in my ear,
I really wanna hear,
The things you did today
That satisfied you...

(Sung by Elmo)
Elmo reached the highest shelf,
He got dressed by himself,
And Elmo wants to say
He's filled with pride, yeah!

(Sung by Johnny)
When you've done the best you could,
You feel really, really good!
You're feelin' that pride!
Yeah, gonna feel that pride...

(Sung by Johnny)
You helped your mother bake a pie,
You fell and didn't cry,
You made your bed and said
Your ABC's

(Sung by Elmo)
Elmo learned to tie his shoe,
He added two and two,
Elmo drank up all his milk
And ate his peas!

(Sung by Johnny)
When you've done the best you could,
You feel really, really good!
You're feelin' that pride!
Ooh, pride...
And you can be the monster that you
Dreamed you'd always be.

(Sung by Elmo)
Elmo's feelin' that nothing can stop him!

(Sung by Johnny)
Elmo nothing is beyond you,
Let those good thoughts fill your head,
You are furry, proud and red!

(Sung by Elmo)
Elmo...no one can top him!

(Sung by Johnny)
And he's so proud!

(Sung by John)
Be the best that you can be...

(Sung by Elmo)Elmo is so proud of ME!

i just love love love this song!
it makes me kinda sad and happy at the time i cant really figure out why

hmmm you know what
every major tests or exams i'll have songs to keep me going
i rmb there was mammia mia and all things abba for sec4 end of years
and then there was hey juliet in for sec4 EOIs
and i cant rmb what for end of sec4..
but this year cts was HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!
and then.. this time.. i dunno what. radio? haha
okay maybe it's gonna be this song!
it's super sweet=))
a bit act cute. but that's cos elmo is super cute!
=))

i wonder how i'll do for gp this time.
i always do.
i mean it's the only thing i dont study for recently and i just count on my common sense and the spur-of-the-momentness of it all...
a bit risky but lately it's been okay=)
sometimes i dont get why i dont really get the things i really want, but those that i am okay with or dont really care about, i just get them. eg. nus econs -.- and okay gp results=)
and then mathssss.. ohfaints la this one.
but i think sometimes God is seriously teaching me to die to my own desires, like what sara said..
and i kinda like did ask him to make me a stronger person and to teach and equip me to face the world after i leave jc. so ya.. maybe that's how he's doing it=)

then on saturday, i cldnt help but start ranting to rachel about how much i still had left to complete and she said "dont think about how much you have to do, think about how much God is gonna do through you!" and she told me those words were from God all the way in heaven! =))

and i believe that our weaknesses will all be made PERFECT in God's glory!
yupp.

just now i was watching a super nice show on hallmark - mom at sixteen.
it was really very very good.
super touching and real and got morals!
yea it was a good break from mugging
and last night apparently, there was the sisterhood of the travelling pants on hbo!
and my mother watched till she cried. faints hahaha
yea it's really good too!!

okay then.
this time tonight i'll be rushing econs
haha
this time next week i'll be rushing bio
anddd
this time next week and one day i'll be CELEBRATING!
=))

2006-09-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

promos are in a day's time
excluding today
can u imagine, one whole year of school and it kinda just culmulates in the next week.
ohsighh
im super dreading it
i wish we always had cts.
that one was super no stress
and plus, after promos, it kinda means that we're one step closer to 2007
ohfaints.
that's so scary

i wish i better attention span
and i was a little bit more efficient
just a little bit
actually i thought i had okay attention span, but grace kinda ruined that thought ytd
so ya. now i have short attention span.
i mean like come on. reading notes is like the most boring thing on earth.
i'd rather practice. but you cant practice unless u have some info in your head
ohsighh
looks like im going for promos as unprepared as last year's eoys
faints
-shakes head-

on a lighter note, we had a little fun doing a secret little something ytd xD
-grins-
hannah grace and me la.
as usual xD
it's super duper pretty and it's one of the best ideas we're ever had
i think it beats our, okay fine. THEIR class outing achievements!
hahahha everytime i look at it, i feel like im in heaven! flying! or walking on clouds also can=)
anw YES THAT IS HOW PRETTY IT IS!
yayy

ohoh. there's a dota song you know?
it's super nice!!
go you-tube to listen
my littlebrother got it from there!
their lan centres are so big and happening!!

one more day to promos.
and 8 more days till its end!!!
and that's only a teeny weeny fraction of our lives!
(assuming we live till 80)
YAYY.

2006-09-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

today i woke up with my hair exceptionally nice! =))
hahaha that was kinda like the FIRST thing i noticed that seemed different
and the SECOND was that, it was 8am, and not 7am(which is when i told my mother i wanted to wake up) or better still, 1am(which i originally planned to wake up last night)
hahha faints.
but then good sleep = good hair
seriously.
so i decided that it was okay that my hair and face got a proper 10pm-2am rest last night!
i mean they've really been deprived of a lot of care lately.
and some days i wake up and my hair feels wiry and out of shape and i know immediately that it's gonna be a bad day. or not-so-wonderful day.
haha

okay
it's time to sleep!
tmr will be a better day!
=)

2006-09-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

wow
it's the weekend again
doesnt feel like it at all.
this week really really flew with most of it being spent in the library
it's our new favourite place to go or sth
got nice aircon nice chairs nice view(except if the person sitting in front of you is grace or hannahchua or worse, BOTH) and nice uhhh lighting? hahhaha

lucky i got hardworking friends who are funny at the same time!
makes mugging so much more enjoyable and bearable!
yayy i really love my classmates=)
even though they have the weirdest and most annoying and UNTRUE nicknames for me,
and they can be some noisy chatterboxes and -GRRRRR- freaks sometimes, hahaha nvm la.
im super blessed to have them i know=))
no one in the whole wide world has classmates as wonderful as mine!

was supposed to have dinner/supper with av and bren today BUT i got tired so i came home.
yea
im gonna sleep now.
im planning what to do after promos.
it's making me excited!
=D

2006-09-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

ohmygoodness
ohmygoodness
OHMYGOODNESSSSSS

oh
my
goodness

TERM FOUR IS STARTING IN TEN HOURS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!

OHMYGOODNESS.

nooooooo. i dont want term4 to come!
and i even more dont wanna go to j2!
ohmygoodness
this rocks.
the only thing im looking forward to is seeing my class and having lessons with them=))
but i got no food cos i was too lazy to buy it on my way home from church
sighhh

tmr's gonna be a long dayyyyy

but avonne and bren came over to mug ytd=) hahahaha
i wonder whether we really made much progress but ohwell!
then we had church and i saw fuiyi.
which is a really wonderful thing cos i havent seen her in a very long time
then this morning i woke up feeling sleepy but still got to go church cos the darling cell would be there
and then we played captain's ball with nikki and tessa's cell and my only contribution was that i sacrificed clean feet so that my slippers could be used as goal markers
then gen was very tall so she kept getting the balls
and my call is nice and sporty!
very proud of them xD HAHA
then it rained
faints
but we managed to walk back to church in the end
and celebrated tessa's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TESSA!
the girls have found a new oogling and eye-candy watch spot!
IM SO SURE.
faints
but nvm gen and i still love them super a lot
after that we had lunch and cell
rachel wasnt there and i kinda miss her and it feels weird not seeing her for like 3 weeks
but ruth led and it was good=)
then i came home and rested and talked on the phone with avonne!
we're gonna watch the devil wears prada this week!
by hook or by crook!
im considering skipping tuition
yes. i have tuition!
i've never had tuition other than chinese
but hahaha it is actually rather fun and like some unusually different experience!
hahahahaha

okay im gonna love term4!
and im gonna love my classmates even more!
i just know it!
then we'll have loads of class and clique outings!
all in three weeks time xD
yesyes.
life is gonna rock real soon!

2006-09-04T20:46:00.000+08:00

ohmygoodnesssss
im dying trying to do econs essay
it's super siannnn
im so tired of writing
and doing econs
i just dont feel like refering to the notes and then making it applicable to the coca cola company
right now
that's all.

anyway, sruthi, here's a little quote for you:
when it hurts to look back and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and we'll always be there=)

yea.. that's what venetia hannahchua enghui and grace wrote for me that day and i thought i'ld share it with you!
cos ytd night i was reading the bible and then God said that he provides us with comfort(like from my wonderful classmates!), so that we can comfort others too!
i guess i just needed reminding of that..
yea.. could tell that that day you were like gonna breakdown cos i seriously have never seen you like that before, it was like nearly... lifeless?
really wanted to talk to you, but then i wasnt in a very wonderful state myself and being surrounded by weird pple in the council room was a bit.. weird.. plus i guess we were just really busy...
i hope everything went well for the pillows=)!
and as much i want to tell you not to stress, your role is sch is prob just like that
so all i can tell you is that whenever you need to, you can always count on us, guides -- your FIRST loves!
xD

anyway, i think making me sick is God's way of making me stay at home to mug!
sighhh
does he really think im that ill disciplined that i need DIVINE INTERVENTION every holiday to make me stay home?!?!?
eeks. haha faints.

okay econs calls!

2006-09-02T19:01:00.000+08:00

aahh im half sick.
i mean not well enough to go to church so haiya.
im missing the first season of worship and sara's gonna be there today!
i wonder if bren is still ill
sighh why cldnt i have fallen sick during the school term?!
like on a pe day!
then i'll have a better excuse for skipping
not like my excuses werent good hahaha
i skipped pe the ENTIRE term3 xD
yupp. skipped the icky yucky-ness of sweating and playing on dirty muddy wet disgusting fields
and then dirtying your shoes and pe shirt
then my maid has to scrub very hard
nope. i decided not to put her through all the trouble
plus think of all the water i saved not changing into pe attire and new underwear!
anw yes, this term, with sprained ankle, loads of pw surveying and drafts to rush and injections (once) and headaches and stomach aches(many times) i simply couldnt go for pe you see!
xD

ohwell. anyway that's just one small thing!
cos thursday was super fun and RATHER productive! for me la
i went out with bren avonne saraa!!
hahahhaa
ohwait but before that was teachers' day celebs
and ohmygoodnesss
my class is super nice!
i mean they would be very nice even if they hadnt gotten the hearts for me but then THEY DID!!!!!!
oh
my
goodness
i was super touched la
okay and i still am!
just that i kinda didnt really show it
i dunno why
i think cos a bit awkward cos it's not like i know every single one of them very well then like a bit ohmygoodness. ahhhh!! faints and dies! im sure! what am i supposed to do?! hahahaa
but then everytime i think of that pink box of hearts sitting on my table =))) i cant help but smile
i mean like how many people are blessed with such thoughtful and loving and sweet classmates right?!?!?!?!
PLUS it was like the last one or sth and venetia said they wasted 20 cents calling somewhere for the art friend ph number!!!!
ohmygoodness. i bet there's no other class in rj, singapore or like the universe that would bother doing such things!!!
i feel damn loved and i love my classmates super duper crazily a lot too! =D
i think im gonna miss them this weekkkk!
which is why im kinda looking forward to bio make up on friday!
=)) yayyy

oh then, that was just surprise number 1!
surprise number 2 i tell you later after dinner!
***

im back! ohyes. then while we (hannahchua grace and i) were watching mr lee's little music performance thing, melho and kiat called us there!
then they gave us really cute and sweet(for mine) door hangers!!
hannah chua's read sth like 'day-dreaming in progress.' hahahhaa FAINTS. how apt.
grace's read 'genius at work. do not disturb' or sth hahahahahhahaa how ~~true~~ sarcastic!
then mine was 'shopping queen sleeps here' yupp the prettiest! i knowxD
thanks mel and kiat!
*kisses

then celebs over, was phototaking time!
hahahaa hope the teachers liked the presents cos we spent quite a bit of time doing it haha
i think ms chua's was the nicest!
although it smudged quite a lot cos of our annoying leaky school
SIGHH it leaks EVERYWHERE!
seriously.
even if i was totally dry when i came to school, but the time i moved to the hall for assembly, i had had droplets of water fall on me! from the COVERED ceiling! or like splash in from the shelter-less, wall-less walkways grr
okay but then av said her socks and shoes were wet the entire day and i saw some people who looked totally drenched when they arrived in school, so better be thankful!
but still, dont you think a school should be like dry, even if it's raining..
-.-

ohyea. so then met yishan who was prob dressed the most glam in school all set to go out. just not with us! -.-
so walked with her bren and sara to j8 where we had lunch at pastamania
then avonne arrived!
and surprise number 3! she gave us chocolates and the pretty foam hearts thing!=))
i think i like received a lot on thursday haha

then sara went home and we proceeded to raffles city cartel to study!
it was rather cold but nice and relatively quiet=)
anw i just like the cushion seats la so yupp
studied until our brains poped, then we went for some retail therapyxD
we got the same file!
it's got ariel (the little mermaid) on it and i just realised how extremely pretty she is!
faints and dies.
yea. bring to school, surely make me happy!
then got my pink socks!
and we roamed around the basement of raffles city mainly..
then we started work again at burger king but i think it was less productive and we mugged and talked till our brains exploded and expired and everything, then we went for retail therapy again!
and avonne and i got snowflake earrings(to match the snowflakes in our phones?? ahaha) and i got THE pink butterfly pouch!
okay, then feeling happy and broke, we walked a little bit around citylink and then went home cos we were really tired and cold
and studying outside with your earphones competing with the 'natural sounds'--> that's what av calls it, can really really make u go madd.

okay and that kinda sums up thursday

friday was more of pw. hahaha last time editting our written report cos it's going for printing noww!
YAYYYY
cant wait for this useless subject to be over
then only thing i gained, was like the friendships of mel and grace??!?!
FAINTS.
i dont think that's how pw should be like, but nvm. i like it like that!

okay then. that's all!
cya!

2006-08-27T23:34:00.001+08:00

i miss BASH
i really do
and i feel super duper distant from them
and okay i just miss hanging out with them.
at least i know they keep my idiosyncrasies in check because now i feel like i've turned into some pink-loving, screamish, noisy, whiny freak.
next week, im gonna shut up as much as possible and only make meaningful and thoughtful comments
-nods-
=))
i shall refrain from putting my hands on my hips everytime someone annoys me
i shall not make unecessary comments
i shall not not fight back(verbally i mean, i dont fight with my fists and feet anyway) whenever someone makes noise at me
i shall not answer back to venetia or any of the "hannah, you are such a stick in the mudddddddd! ! !" comments
i shall not give useless insensitive advice
i will not pass distracting girly notes
i will not pretend to be angry at anyone or irritated or annoyed
i will not pretend to scold anyone
i will not pretend to not like anyone
i will not tease grace about her height and the stupid, embarressing things she does everyday

instead i will offer my food to more people in class
i will offer to help pple carry stuff (when they are struggling la)
i will open doors and lifts for people and not attempt to charge them 10 cents or any fee whatsoever
i will actively make it a point to pay attention during lectures and tutorials and keep everyone awake and attentive along with me
and tmr, when i bring my cute 5 dollar sharpener to school, i will lend EVERYONE who asks, regardless of whether i might be risking spoiling it or not, or whether they even have a pencil to sharpen or not!
if the occasion calls for it, i will willingly let anyone eat my crab claw or use the scratchcard that has loads of pink parts or have anything they want, even if i like it very much, after all, they are just, things.
i will do quiet time more faithfully
i will talk to and have fun with the guys doing nus h3 econs even if i know that they are hundred million billion gazillion times smarter than me
i will still find good conversation topics
and i will NOT be intimidated by their love for studying or going to the library or simply their smartness
i will go to the ladies washroom myself happily and learn to enjoy the peace of being alone even though nus is big and ugly
i will be very very extra nice to eunice cos it's her birthday next week and will not ignore her accidentally or take too long to reply herxD
i will answer questions in class, especially maths! eeks.
i shall learn to think before i talk and above all,
i shall make sure that i allow God's thoughts to fill my mind and God's presence to fill my life!

BRENDA AVONNE SARA!
let's go out some time soon!

2006-08-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

Loving you
Is some kind of wonderful
Because you've shown me
Just how much you care
You've given me the thrill of a lifetime
And made me believe you've got more thrills to spare

This will be
An everlasting love,
oh, yes, it will now

You've brought a lot of sunshine into my life
You've filled me with happiness I never knew
You gave me more joy than I ever dreamed of
And no one, no one can take the place of you

avonneeeeeee i miss you too!
dont worry la. it's not anyone can ever replace you xD
so even if our lives are not intertwined, it's still okay.
we'll find time for each other somehow=))

today we had dragon boating in the morning
not as fun as last week's but still enjoyable!
and then got to talk to yang jav and cheryl for a teeny weeny little while
as in serious talk -have to admit we dont do much of that.
and yea.. i think we still need a lot of help and stuff
haiyaaa

okay anyway i love love love my classmates!!
grace eunice hannahchua yilun nikki!
=))
they make going to school so much less painful!

2006-08-14T02:33:00.000+08:00

i feel super smart.
i have pw EoM to do and all my pw stuff is far far away on another part of singapore (i.e. kembangan - grace's house)
FAINTSSSSSSSSS
i dont have a single handout or notes or anything
except the group EoM which is in my computer and which got an AE/ low ME or whatever
HAHAHHAHAA

ohmygoodness. grace is typing the guidelines out of me now! yayy
and i shall blog until she finishes! xD
i just need to rant a little while before i begin the second part of my pw rushing!
sighh written report... faints and dies.
but nvm. i cant wait for the finished product.
it will be perfect then!
i enjoy touching up the final details so that the finished thing is nice and wholesome and complete and consistent and whatever!
oohlalala
ohdear going mad already
about 3 more hours to go till i need to pack for school and leave the house
okay
i wonder if i can get away without doing EoM, like i stay in the toilet for the entire pw session and ask my group to meet there.. or go sickbay or sth?
haiyaaaaa

this week has been super duper eventful
i blogged an entire entry about class outing, but dunno where it went ohwell
then this weekend, sighh so messed up
and it doesnt help that there are one million things to do
ohfaints
ohsigh

i got h3 nus econs
and i wasnt even expecting it and i wasnt even like dying to get it and i just signed up cos uhh... for the sake of it or sth?
annoying how sometimes you get things you dont really want, and dont get those you really want
not that i dont want the nus thing, but i have to forgo laos trip now!
im sure.
actually im not thinking too much this time (unlike last time council and canoe) cos it's gonna be even harder
and God's in control
and like i dont have enough things on my mind like that
i realised that we need to train harder, study harder and my qttttttt!! ohmygoodness.
-shakes head-

im listening to angel in disguise which is kinda where this blog's name came from=))

thanks to BASH and darling little cell for coming over=))
really super duper appreciate it -nods-
and to everyone for asking.. yea.. i guess im getting along okay..

duathlon -refers to shirt to check spelling. im wearing it now xD- was super faints.
nearly died and i thought the kayaking part would never end
and i wanna thank yangyang for being so strong and encouraging and not getting pissed at me for being so endurance-less and tired or whatever!
thanks darling!
i totally enjoyed kayaking behind you and i think i'll forever remember the back of your head and shirt forevermore!
hahahahhaa

dragon boating was super fun t00=))
i just love us canoeists!
even when mr goh sprang that surprise chinups mini training on us, i knew all of us(or most) were like super ohmygoodness and speechless
and i was so O.O and unmentally prepared that i wasnt going to be going home straight away, that i nearly cried.
but seeing everyone attack the pull up bar and one by one JUST DOING IT, i think i got influenced too!
=D
and it wasnt that bad in the end..
yea -nods-

okay time to get back to work!

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don't bite

-venetia better watch out! xD

well then, here's to a productive and meaningful week for everyone
and that God's presence will be in everything you do!
yes, even pw -.- and econs class test and 45min runs=)

2006-08-10T04:11:00.000+08:00

it's super late at night and early in the morning now
outside is kinda drizzling i think and i got training early in the morning tmr
eeks.

today is national day and it felt totally like a saturday
yesterday, well, it was heavenly and it totally rocked=D

natdaycelebrations at the start which were.. ohwell. normal i guess?
and we're officially not allowed to play mahjong. how annoying.
anw i think we just bummed ard most of the time and had fun with the tinsel wire and super adorable furry balls with eyes! - it was our class' natday accessorizing thing(haha cant think of a better name)
anyway, im glad we(okay fine. GRACE) thought of it, cos it was uhh.. sth special? hahaha and so pretty and irresistibly cutexD
yayyy
then we had canoe meeting about laos trip and stuff and i've been thinking just how in the world am i gonna survive out there?!??! ohmann.. i simple thing like putting on contacts is prob gonna be quite difficult and maybe no nice bed to return to at night. no dustbin in the toilet to throw away underwear and whatnot. or like sink/toilet too small to put all the toiletries and everything! and it's like 17days! imagine how much cotton wool for the toner that is! and how much clothes and underwear and probably need to wash and dry them there, then need hangers, might get crumpled.. ohmann.. its starting to seem rather scary BUT (see the big BUT) i think all the sacrifices and gonna be worth it, and i'll justhave to figure out how im gonna survive that's all..

anyway, after that we had class outing!!!!
=))
started off a bit tired and stuff but BUT it turned out okay in the end!
we pooled (and enghui hannah clara and me played mahjong) and changed in the toilets and ate at gelare and rented our bikes and cycled to the kayaking place and kayaked and got capsized and had super a lot of fun! and then we went to marina bay and had steamboat! =D
i think bren's class was there too! hahaha
then we went to eat tau hway and by the time hannah and i reached grace house to sleepover, it was 11 plus i think??
obviously i cant tell you all the fun things that happened cos it's hard to type it out, but it was so extremely fun and funny and we all had a complete whale of a time!
thinking about it makes me happy!=)
and you know how sometimes you just get so high that you never want it to end, and the next day, you're still busking in the blissfulness of it all?
well, it was like that la.
and we took one million photos and hilarious videos and the absolute highlight were the FIREWORKS!
it was perfect timing, just as we stepped out of the steamboat place, they started exploding in the air! it was super pretty and like breathtaking and the best part was that we got to enjoy it as a class!!
(P.S. i want fireworks for my 18th birthday next year. telling you early, so that you all can go prepare and start raising money or looking for sponsors xD)
okay. anyway, whoever gets me fireworks for my birthday i think my heart will just melt and vaporize AND i promise to love the person FOREVER!
i think i shall study chem super hard now so that next time when i grow older, i can invent fireworks to spell my name in cursive in different shades of pink! and everybody else's too of cos! and they will react in such a way not to cause air pollution and will not kill poor unsuspecting birds!
=))

after that, we travelled one and a half hours (no joke i tell you) just to eat $1 beancurd at some scary red light district - geylang. FAINTSSS.
oh
my
goodness.
i thought we were never gonna get there!
i still wonder if it was worth it, but i know it's an epxerience i'll never forget!

then we went grace's house to sleepover!
perfect ending to a perfect day=))
was super tired and we slept till like 10am the next day
and yea.. woke up feeling happy!

it's like 4.30am now
and i seriously need to sleep
goodnight!

ohmann. i almost forgot!
i love 07S03M!!!
i never really imagined another class outing as wonderful as the previous but this one was just so special!
and i never ever thought that i'ld ever love the class as much as i do now but i do!

2006-07-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

hmm life is so far so good
esp with ytd
and ytd was oh-so-wonderful i really wished that it never ended

i love talking to grace=)
i think not bad, WE CAN CLICK!
yayyy
i love you darling!
for all the effort you've put in for the class and pw and just being there for me to talk to!

anw, ytd we tried to do our pw surveys at SGH, but ended up being directed to some women's outpatient clinic?!?!
faints.
so that was kinda like a wasted trip, but not so wasted cos i got to talk to grace(which i've been doing a lot of lately actually) !!

then later we went to raffles city and talked some more and did some work
and then alison and carmen arrived!!!!!!!!!
and then olivia arrived!!!
but ms wong never came!
you know, i cant really rmb what exactly we talked about, or what happened, all i know is that we had SUPER A LOT OF FUN and i didnt feel like going to school today =(
i realised how much i have missed them..
and how no matter how many nice, new friends i make, NO ONE CAN EVER REPLACE my darling lower sec classmates!
the bonds we formed must have been super strong (though we didnt know it then) because they have totally stood the test of time and everytime i sit down with you all, i feel as though as though we were in lower sec all over again
and even though everything around us is changing, i love the way WE'RE STILL THE SAME!=))
anw we did stuff like squeal and go crazy over the prettiest things, even though i've like seen them all before at kino, isetan, james lee's auntie's shop, taka and whatnot... ahahah still very fun!
raffles city is really super nice, even though we kinda were like the only students there! faints..
anw, since it was a school night and the shops were already closing, we went home, yi1 yi1 bu4 she3-ly =((

ohdear. i suddenly miss everyone a lot...
but i really thank God for my classsmates who are totally super funny and spontaneous and easy to get along with!
i bet everyone's jealous of my classxD

but anw im listening to jimmy gets high now..
what in the world does the song mean?

"so we get high tonight..."

2006-07-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

haha
i love the way some people walk out of the exam hall thinking "whoa. this one gone already. my main aim is to pass this test now."
like HUH?!?!? it's like over already! and there kinda isnt anything you do about it.
actually i just thought about it, cos i was reading yilun's blog.
yes, yilun..
she's been our source of amusement this entire week and possibly the rest of our jc life.
like no matter how much she tries to be un-alvin-like OR not embaress herself OR not make noise, she kinda still doesnt succeed.
ohfaintss
sometimes a bit sad case, but we still love her anyway
so yea.
let's just hope she never reads this

AND THEN, it's INSANE(like absolutely) having another girl in class with your name!
HANNAH CHUA!!!
grrrr.
i think we're both going crazy from like trying NOT to respond to people who simply call out "hannah hannah!" cos.. we dont want to turn our heads or respond wrongly, in case we look like fools. no, actually we WILL look like complete losers cos everyone is suddenly taking notice of this thingy thing.
hahahahahhahaa
well, if it didnt involve me it would be funny
but actually it's still funny la=)
and yupp. that's what makes our class so fun and exciting
YAYYY

and then there's mahjong
which like completely gives you sth to look forward to in school!
yes! playing mahjong!
and today clara was like on a winning streak and everyone i helped like eventually won?!?!?!?
like HOW PRO is that!
xD
okay
i just think today is my blessed day
cos on my own i won like a few mahjong games too!!!!
i love winning, makes you so extremely high and happyxD
ESP when you've been waiting for your pai2 for like super long?!?!?! (i.e. 5 to 10min!)

and then we got back econs and not only did i get double digit(!!!), i passed(!!!!!!) and im really thankful!!!
then yilun spotted like marks counted wrongly which is like a MAJOR blessing cos i wldnt have counted to double check again.. so yupp=)
thanks darling!
even though i have no idea why you suddenly took my paper and started counting my marks! hahaha faints. see! so blessed!

then we did weights for training=)
i love weights.
plus there's aircon, even if the gym does stink like mad
and it was nice to train with everyone again!

then when i got home, after dinner, princess diaries 2: royal engagement played on disney channel!
pretty pretty movie with a wonderful soundtrack=)
i dont know what life would be like without disney channel, seriously.
maybe less entertainment... but yea. i love love LOVE the effect disney channel always has on me! i think disney is my favourite thing of all time! all things disney!

we're soarin’, flyin’
there’s not a star in heaven
that we can’t reach
if we’re trying
so we’re breaking free

2006-06-29T02:05:00.000+08:00

once again i look upon the cross where you died
im humbled by your mercy and im broken inside
once again i thank you
once again i pour out my life

hahhaa
im sort of in a june holiday mood, in a normal school term mood..
but definitely not ct mood
i have no idea why
hahhaa
one day of staying at home.
cut off from the stressed out world, then i guess i forget about the significance? imptance? of cts or sth..

you know what. i watched high5 for the first time in a looong time today!
haha i think they're songs are super catchy and nice
and i think there's like a certain code for catchy melodies and rhythms and they compose according to those 'rules' or sth!??!
hahaha cos everytime after watching high5, the finale song would be stuck in my head for a while AND i dont mind. cos it's rather nice to sing!

did i mention i hate the 'rhythm' word??
cos last time when i was in primary sch and had to do theory, i could NEVER spell it.
like i'll take my pencil and try ryhtm, rthm, rymthm and what not la. until like i think grade5 or sth.. when i've spelt it enough times, then haha can=)

okay i think it's time to sleep!
yea.. left maths and bio. and everything will be over in.. about 32 hours!
haha i think when you're stressed and dreading sth, it's good to step back and rmb that that particular time is only a REALLY small proportion of your ENTIRE life!

2006-06-28T17:31:00.000+08:00

i am officially dying
i mean there's like only SO MUCH work you can do in two weeks, only so many times you can listen to the playlists in your ipod and zen (YES. BOTH.) and only so long you can watch tv.
only so many sheets of rough and foolscape paper you can use to make notes
only so many maths questions that you attempt
only so many times that you write dy/dx
only so long you can concentrate
only so many times you can watch the high school musical (on the laptop) and so many times you can listen to the high school musical soundtrack to get yourself pumped up
only so long you can lie in bed and attempt to rest your bursting brain
only so many times you can walk around the house looking for sth else to do or eat (and only so much you can eat too)
only so many times you can wash your face and re-tie your hair in an attempt to refresh yourself
only so many new songs and videos you can download just so that you have sth NEW
only so many times you can watch the same show over and over again
only so many times you can press your GC to draw graphs
only so long you can be in ONE room (the study room) on end
only so many blogs you can surf, and friendster accounts too
only so many piano pieces you can play
only so many times you can read gossip girl
only so long you can stone for
only so many times you can go downstairs to drink water

before you BURST!
haha okay i got tired
faints

2006-06-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHAA.
I AM SO EXTRMELY HIGH FROM WATCHING HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!!!!!
so high that i cant sit down and study!!!!!
ahh. but ohwell!
it's was super nice=D
just like your typical feel-good movie!
disney channel original movie!
=))
hahahhahahaha xD
plus the cast was rather pretty and good and everything so i guess it really was near perfect, just except for the fact that it was SUPER CLICHED!
but ohwell. dont we all LOVE cliches and happy endings=))!!!
so yupp. im not complaining!
haha elson was commenting that the ending was so nice and happy and all, but he was wondering why he was still feeling so very sad deep inside and then he suddenly realised why : BECAUSE SCHOOL STARTS TMR!
after one entire month of crazy slacking and foot-recovering (for me la), school is finally reopening!
im looking forward to being with the class again=))
yes yes. -nods-
i really miss themmm! even though it's not like we're the closest bunch of pple, BUT STILL!
and then there's the morning rush, which i think completely characterizes my school life.
if there's anything that's constant, it's that crazy morning rush which i have perfected over the years xD
and then when i get to school, it would be the therapeutic face-washing, hair-tying, cream-applying ritual in the washroom, where SOMETIMES sruthi or rebecca or someone would stroll in to talk hahahhaa
then sit at og table or canoe table and crap around..
*BELL RINGS*
and tada! school starts!
and then we'll just rush around and try to be hardworking, sometimes succeeding, sometimes not. but nvm we still survive!
hahhahaa
thinking about it makes me high
must be the high school musical!
faints.
that's how -.-

butttttt, all that's not gonna happen tmr, cos we got CTS!
how exciting!
=))
okay this is madness.
okay i really need to calm down cos i really wanna start revising
yes YESSS!

anyway, im inviting everyone to my house(i'll also invite you personally when i see you la) to watch it(high school musical, i mean, what else?) next week on sunday night! and then after that there's the uhh making of it! HAHA.
i think it's crazy how disney channel still has the same effect on me all these years!=))
okay. anyway, it's something to look forward to the ENTIRE week, which is prob gonna be a draggy and long one..!

anyway, here's to a wonderfully FAST AND PAINLESS CT WEEK and TERM 3!

it's the start of something new!

2006-06-25T02:04:00.000+08:00

i've got a headache....!!!
like again.
i dunno whether is it from mugging too much or from my contacts, with which i cant really see anymore!
sighh i dunno why
i've been super duper stoned lately
and i still dont feel the stress and excitement (yes.. got excitement=)) of cts yet!!
so im just slowly ploughing through everything without any urgency
and you know that if there's urgency, you can be like how many thousand times more productive!
but i guess it's because i've been in MUCH worse situations before..
i mean like nothing really beats having to stay up an ENTIRE night to do bio pts or whatever. so yea.. this is considered REALLY REALLY good and on time and oohlala. very commendable i think!
hahahhaa

actually i dunno how i manage to concentrate with so many things running through my mind each time
just just now, i was thinking of like primary school..
and how i used to like do EVERYTHING during projects..
like in lower primary, there were those butcher sheets with an empty space for drawings and lines for writing
and like mrskhoo would give us a title or theme and we'll split into our grps and everyone get onto the floor and start work..
and i remember i'll always be the one writing.. then as i write i try to make sure that the rest of the grp does the drawing and colouring and whatever properly
hahaha faints
i think i was perfectionist then, so everyone MUST follow MY plan which is what i think happens to be best for the grp!
ahhh faints.
FAINTSSSS
life was so simple then!

anyway, friday can possibly be considered my most happening day in the holidays!
yes i know.. very loser.
we had econs in the morning and all i rmb was that the air-con was really really very very cold but i kept taking notes anyway, cos i just felt like writing=)) and then there were a few pple behind(or maybe just one) who were constantly sprouting cheem questions and answers and like ^.- okayyyy faints. hahaha i never even knew what welfare loss and deadweight loss were but yea.. i now know that they're the same thing!

after that, went to orchard to meet bren cos we needed to do some shopping.. waited for a cab for rather long but it never came (nikki like got into the first one haha) so i slowly walked to the mrt! =)) it's probably like the furthest distance i've walked since.. uhh a very long time! yea.. then we went mango sale, just for the sake of it more than anything else i think.. then walked here and there.. the usual places i MUST go everytime i go taka, just for the sake of it too.. and then we went to kino and got stuff there.. haha everytime i go kino i get stuff=))
so we concluded that we're stationery pple more than clothes pple and whatever xD
dunno la. new stationery makes me happier than new clothes!

thenn.. we went to avonne's house for some bbq..
quite fun la
hahaha
the food was nice=)
and the pple were rather nice too!
and then i went home with james.. no actually he went home with me
so that he cld go home with his parents who were at my house but ANYWAY.
yupp. and that kinda concluded my most happening day

i cant wait for cts to be over!!!!!!!!
cos then comes pH11 gatheringgggg!!
YAYY.
cant wait cant wait!

2006-06-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

life rocks!
and i am finally recovering!
hahahha i think i've said that a lot of times but yea..
i can go down the stairs putting like some weight on the injured foot! =))
MAJOR IMPROVEMENT k!

anyway, im getting bored of mugging
im going crazy staring at notes and stuff
sighh
so like i didnt mug for one whole day and just read gossip girl(for the dunno-how-manyth time)xD
i think i like doing things over and over again
and i dont get tired of it easily
like i rmb i used to like freaky friday a lot and i watched it like 3 times in two days or sth till i cld rmb ALL THE LINES!
hahaha
and i love listening to the same song over and over again, of course i must like it la

ohdear. my entry is all about ME!
eeeks. hahaa
cos i really never go out meeting pple..
except when we had MR bluebloods meeting on tues and i met a whole lot of pple=))
it felt so good to be out of the house, i was like just relishing it..
and like nazi and balpreet are rather hilarious
and ahahhahahaa. everyone is SO PRO!
YAYY.
haha and they kept reliving their ri morrison memories
it's like MR=morrison?!?! or sth.. to them
faintsss
but nvm!

anyway, there was yishan and her beloved!
then got the canoeists!
=))
ahh. today it rained and then rain=water=macritchie=canoe!
and i suddenly realised how much i miss rowing!!
SIGHH

i dont think we're gonna have any BASH outing now that everyone's so busy mugging
so i'll just have to look forward to pH11 outing!
oh. i dunno who from pH11 reads, but can we sleep over at yishan's house??
from monday to tuesday.. then we'll wake up and go to school tgt=)
should be quite fun since we're like one big grp.. can keep other awake AND start the school term on a high note!
hahaha. ct week is not counted.
okay. anyway, even if no one wants to sleepover, uhhh... yishan, we find our own pple kxD
!!!
yayy
it's such things that help to uhh ease the agony and pain of mugging and sitting for tests
OHYES.
im going shopping this monday!
with my mother
let's pray that she feels generous and nice!
andddd...
on sunday(the one before monday with the cts) there is HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL on DISNEY CHANNEL!
yupp. i wanna watch!
which is my motivation to study hard now
anyway, i'm telling you now in advance so that you can prepare to watch too if you have disney channel!
=D

yayy
okay
let me encourage you with a verse!

Therefore, we do not lose heart.(just keep trying!) Though outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles(eg. mugging or and difficulty you may be facing right now) are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. -2 Corinthians 4:16-18

im reading purpose driven life now=)
like finally. and it's even more life changing than i kissed dating goodbye!
okay la
that's about it..
im going off for some famine camp which starves you for 30hours so that you know what it's like to go hungry like the children in Africa.
wish me all the best mann!
xD

goodnight!

2006-06-15T14:42:00.000+08:00

hahaha
im listening to hey mickey now!
=))
MAKES YOU GET HIGH EVEN IF YOU'RE ALONE!!!!
hahahhaahaxD

you know what. i realise that i've been attracted to hearts since i was young
cos i was just looking at my display cupboard, then i saw two small cute cars which my brother i picked out when we were on holiday when we were like 5 or sth
anyway his is some rather guy van with little gadgets and stuff
and mine is this black, mr bean-like car with red hearts!
hahhaa
i can still rmb what went through my mind when i was choosing.. when i first spotted it i knew i wanted that.. but then "dont choose hearts la.. i mean how can cars have hearts (i was very uhh.. realistic that time) and it looks so unreal and wrong.. you wanna drive a car that looks like that mehh?" then i stood there for like quite long, trying to choose a cool, drivable car. but in the end, haha. i guess i still picked the one with hearts xD

then there was another time dunno who and i were talking about barney
me: eh. i still rmb my favourite barney episode! it was when this girl, cos she didnt really like love her brother (cos dont wanna share toys and stuff i think), then barney gave her this box, and when she opened it, one million pretty hearts floated out! you know.. like spread the love kinda thing.. then from that day i wished that i had such a box and i always wondered the hearts were made out of and stuff and whether you cld catch them and what wld happen.. (but obviously it's just computer animation -.- but i didnt know that last time)
friend: haha so you mean you've liked hearts since young??!

haha i think that was yishan.. but yea.. i thought it was quite funny cos i never thought of it that way

okay
im boreddd
there is nothing exciting to do at home!
and i've officially spent THREE weeks of my holiday at home!
feels like it at least
SIGHHH.

2006-06-14T17:07:00.000+08:00

sighhh
i really need retail therapy!
really really really!
this time really not joking
and it's no longer like a 'want', it's become a NEED!
seriously.
ohsighh
hurry get welll!!!

actually i can walk without pain=))
but i still cant even go down stairs properly cos my foot is still so weak!
it cant support my body weight that kinda thing
ohfaintsss

avonneis back!
time for BASH outing!
(BASH is more precious that cash!)
hahaha okay but i think everyone is mugging away=((

i got a craving for coffee bean mocha and cheesecake!!!!
i just love that combixD
and once i like find sth that i like, i just stick to it!
haha
i mean it saves making decisions abt what to eat. after all what decision is there to make when u KNOW you already like something best right????
hahhaa

cherie, i hope you get well soon! having a sprained ankle is worse than falling ill!
it's like some prolonged hinderance and inconvenience?!?! grrr.
huishan's almost okay already cos i went to school and saw her ytd. well, at least she can train!
how unfair.

2006-06-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

haha
im taking a break from mugging!
YES. i have started!

anywayyy, was looking through all our last year fotos=)
actually they're all like from the later part of the year...
and then i found our jap class foto!
ahhh.
still rmb those times!
jap class was always funny
almost always. unless gina and i were feeling sad
but then the guys were always rather hilarious. and smart. but haha
i still rmb sensei telling us that we were 'not typical rgs girls.. -shake head shake head-'
(meaning that we're stupid and lazy la..)
like WHAT THE. THANKS ARHH!!
hahhahahaha but it was still really funny
like which teacher goes around saying that. and she's so stereotyped la!
yea.. our jap class.
last year taking jap but first year in a non-raffles class.
it was a good experience.
you would think it was no different, but there was some sort of difference though i think we never really found out what.
haha

then i have some super cute and hilarious fotos that can use to blackmail pple too
but aiya.
i think i'd rather not put up here.

then im reading my old emails..
hahhahaa
can i tell you CRAZILY things have changed over the past one year?!??!
hahhahaa it's rather funny on hindsight actually.
but yea.
xD
oh. and not forgetting the AA emails!
ONE WHOLE PAGE of them!
so maddd!
back and forth back and forth
about like structure, deco, food, concert, script... ... ...!!
i think my life last year was more happening.

okay. YAYY. avonne is back
I THINK.
i mean it's been 10 days already rightt??
she left on 2 june, so now it's 12. so hahaha
should be back!

2006-06-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

one day i will get better

till then...

i'll just have to keep limping around..
SIGHH

im getting better im getting better!
and im REALLY trying to be positive about it!
ohsigh
this is so annoying

2006-06-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

YES
YES
YES

i am finally recovering!
ohYESSSSSSSS!

hhaahhaa
super happy!
my foot is no longer swollen like some fat balloon AND you can actually see my veins(some, very few la) and feel my bones and ligaments and tendons(wtv)!!!
xD
OHYAYY!
soon i'll be running about againn!
and then i can go for training and do all the things i wanna do
after all, this holiday, im like REALLY free!
like no commitments whatsoever!
i havent felt this free in a longgggggggg time!
=D
it's a good feeling la
but can get bored!

and YES!
i am totally looking forward to our ph11 gathering!
counting down, counting down..
let's keep the emails going k..
it makes my day and i miss hearing from all of you!

2006-06-01T12:37:00.000+08:00

ahhh!!

i am so officially dying
my
leg
is
super
duper
PAINNNFULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
!!!!!!!!
=(

and im like super duper sadd
everyone is training like mad!
i wanna train TOO!

it's been ONE WEEK of suffering and not going out and everything!
ohsighhh
i feel like im missing out on a lot
i dont feel like doing work ANYMORE
all i wanna do is chop off my annoying foot

last night it was so cramped up and painful i couldnt sleep!
now it's still stiff and cramped up
and i really really dunno what to do alreadyyyyyyyyyyy
like seriously

and i desperately need to train
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

on a happier note, BASH WENT OUT YESTERDAY!
oohwheeeeeeeeee.
it was quite fun la
quite hilariousxD
haahhahaha
ohsigh.
i cant wait to get out again.

2006-05-30T18:12:00.000+08:00

OHMYGOODNESS
im officially dying of boredom at home
i need to get outttttt!!!
the last time i stepped out of the house was to see the doctor on saturday
and the last time before that was to see the chinese doctor on thursday(and i think that was the time i spoke the most chinese this year! faints)
and the last time before that was school.
GRR

yea.. in case you all havent heard, i sprained my ankle during pe on thursday.
how wonderful. yes i know.
-.-
actually i shouldnt have even bothered waking up early that morning to go to school
after all, it's just pe.
now i know, next time i should just trust my gut feeling more.
FEEL like sleeping in, means SLEEP IN!!
sighhhh
at first i thought it was just some little thing.
but OH.MY.GOODNESS.
turned out that i sprained 3 different parts(according to the chinese doctor) of my feet!! faints
i can just die.
yea.. so i spent the whole day in school hobbling around AND icing it, AND wetting the lt floor.
but thank God for all my wonderful classmates and canoe-mates and friends=)
even people i hardly ever talk to helped me!
yea..
thanks enghui, for your towel
and sien and annabel for crashing lt2 maths with me
and huishan for offering your shoebag as some foot prop
and chuwen for crossing the road to the side where there are more empty cabs and flagging one down for me
and avonne for helping get lunch from the canteen
and jav and elisa for accompanying me during chem lect!
and one million more people!=))
yayy. hugsss!

ahh. anyway, the next day i cldnt go for og birthday-end-of-term celebration and class party and 402 gathering!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SIGHHHHH
but nvm. ignorance is bliss. i shall pretend i hardly missed out on anything.. -.-
and i was enjoying myself at home
doing nothing
which is one thing i quite like anyway
but now, after a few days of doing nothing(except mugging, cos as soon as i get better im going out!!) im seriously starting to rot away
there is NOTHING TO DO AT HOME!

i need to train.
i can feel my muscles evaporating and turning flabby
it's super gross.

i need to go shopping!
i need to walk around orchard road.
i need to buy birthday presents and cards and eat at nydc!

it's not even a 'want'
it's a NEED!
ohmannn
this rocks

my foot feels really uncomfortable
it's like some stiff, frostbite like thing
it's all blue black and at some parts, the muscles are like moldable?!?! like plasticine you know.. it's like you press down and it doesnt bounce back up! it just stays there! like clay!
ohfaints
life rocks.
my toes are especially blue black. i dunno why.
it hurts from above my ankle to nearly the tip of my toessssss!
i think im gonna die.

BUT BUT BUT
i got sth to look forward to!
im going out with BASH tmr!
or maybe it's more like meeting up with them
since all i can do is sit around
ohfaints
i dont even know what shoe im gonna wear cos my foot is still swollen to like twice the size
ohdear
howwWWWWWww??!?!??!?!

life rocks.
i know my house inside out now, and i think it's very small
i used to think it just a bit too big, or just nice..
but actually, it's really small and predictable
nothing in it ever changes much
and it's always messy

ohsighh.
let's hope i get better by tmr
yayy

2006-05-25T02:44:00.000+08:00

okay
i shall allow myself 5min blogging time!
hahaha

im like still doing gpp and i realised that we have LOADS to change
and i dunno whether i should just do everything cos it would be so much faster
just that im feeling a bit -.- right now.. not that i dont want to, just no mood

listening to angel in disguise now.. i love the way songs remind me of stuff
just like hey juliet reminds me of aa and guides and a MILLION other things, and mamma mia and all things abba reminds me of THAT wonderful period in sec3, when uhhh... gfc was first founded xD angel in disguise reminds me of the FIVE OF US! haahhaa even though huishan doesnt like the song! -.-

ytd was a nice productive holiday
i think it's cos i havent mugged in such a long time, that it actually feels good!
avonne came over
hahahha
and we just had a wonderful time doing work together just like the good old days in lower sec!
and we watched a bit of mean girls
and we accomplished quite alot=)
what could be better righttttt

anyway today was GP common test and even though i really really really wanted to go out after that, i went for training anyway. which is also fun k.. just a DIFFERENT kind of fun. hahaa faints.

take a look at the ordinary
dont need to look for paradise
you could be next to an angel in disguise!
-flap flap-
xD

2006-05-22T00:36:00.000+08:00

haha
still kinda like got no mood to do work
i mean im wide awake and all
and it's a good feeling but somehow there are loads of other things on my mind and im having trouble concentrating

but anyway, just now we met for pw at cartel!
yes, i love love LOVE my pw group and i feel super blessed to have mel and grace and biyang

first there is mel who always accomodates my weird and last-minute working habits by waking up in the morning to print our gpp and she is also super nice to talk to and i totally regret not getting to know her better in the PAST FOUR YEARS! yes.. i know.. i had four years of opportunities! sorry, mel. but now i know i really love you! plus her gpp is always done pro-ly(okay. i havent opened the one that you just did but im crossing my fingers and hoping it is good!) and i love editting it! =)) and she is a source of strength cos she's always so steady and focused. well, more or less la!

then there is grace who is no doubt the crappiest and noisest member but i love her all the same cos she makes life interesting with her ego-ness and love for suaning people. FAINTS, yes i know.. how to live with this kind of people right? but haha! can la. trust me xD PLUS she also does her work. you know, sometimes in project groups, got super funny people who completely make projects sth you look forward to, but when it comes to doing work, they like contribute NOTHING?!?! but grace isnt like that. funny + do work. BEST. i like. (actually mel too, hahhaa. no wonder i love us!)

then there is biyang, whom we should uhhh take more care of! HEHHHH. oops. it's a bit hard for me honestly, but im really really tryingg.. except on days when my patience wears thin cos i got headache and i dont feel like pushing anyone to contribute and i get annoyed when they dont take the initiative.. but it's alright la=) at least he laughs along with us and gives constructive feedback(unlike those funny and unhelpful people i've mentioned above)

okay. my blogging style seems to have changed a little bit. i think im very easily influenced by other people's blogging ways.. but HAHHA. nvm la huh.

anyway, i was just thinking about stuff.. and i realised that there will always always always be better, more competent, more successful and pro-er people to compete and compare with. unless we realise and know our purpose for where we are in life, we will probably never ever be contented. and knowing that purpose comes from God and hearing his calling. and although i always tell my little cell these kind of things, it is still really difficult for me to rest in this knowledge, and it is especially difficult when things dont go your way. and then you try to remind yourself that "everything is in God's hands" and "whatever bad that he lets happen, he WILL turn it around and make it good" simply because of the "loving and faithful Father" that he is... (it's coming out almost mechanical now) but it is still difficult. sometimes i can completely let go, other times i only manage to TRY to let go.. but anyway, just wanted to encourage all those who might sometimes be feeling like me, to just continue seeking God and praying.. cos that is seriously the only way=)) and you know what? you'll find Him in places and situations you'ld never expect!

2006-05-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

my weekend has been boringgg
super normal
and just a lot of things to do
but that's still normal
and my holidays are like gonna be super boring compared to everyone else's!
how come everyone seems to be going overseas for some sch-related activity?!
my schedule is only like training?!!
and going malaysia to visit my relatives like i've been doing my ENTIRE life?!
ohfaints
but nvm
i shall study hard for cts and not be like EOIs and EOYs last year..
like get some real solid mugging done!

okay
that's like about it..
have a wonderful week 10!

2006-05-17T02:43:00.000+08:00

haha
it's a crazy time at night now
and im really trying to do work, but i really cant do maths!
it's super annoying
im like just staring at everything and it EXTRA effort to process it!
and the weird thing is that im not even sleepy
in fact i feel like i just woke up!
ohfaints

anyway
today during break i was in the canteen with avonne talking and people-watching, and suddenly, we saw this guy finish his subway cookie and then proceed to wipe his mouth with the cookie paper bag!
like FAINTS. -.-"
F
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T
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A
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D
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sorry. we were just THOROUGHLY AMUSED!!!
hhahahahahaha xD
like hello?!?! no tissue??!?!? i mean dont wipe mouth also wont die rightttttt??? using the subway cookie little paper bag thing is like 'oh. my. goodnessssss. faintssss.'
okay. maybe im overreacting
but still.. it was super funny! really!
for starts, the cookie bag isnt very clean to begin with, i mean it has like cookie oil and nutty bits and has been dirtied by your hand, the cookie seller's hand and everything else in between and ohfaints. it's PAPER! for goodness sake! hard and rigid. it's as good as using your worksheet to like wipe your mouth??!?! like that next time might as well use just pluck cardboard from the ground to use or sth..
ohwait. the best thing is he folded it up and used it EXACTLY like tissue paper! ohfaints. the thought of it is really very hilarious. i mean how can paper ever be a substitute for TISSUE PAPER?!?!?!
hahahahhahahahhaa.
sorry. still very very amused.
hmmm. i think it's the combination of a very civilized act of wiping your mouth with the uncivilized-and-mad-ness of using a subway cookie bag.. it's like dirty plus clean still equals to dirty??! im sure we all know that. i mean how clean can your mouth get if you wipe it with a cookie bag?!!?
PLUS he's like a councillor and house capt!
double faints.
sorry.. i thought they were all supposed to be nice, clean, civilized people.
ohwell. but okay. i think this is gonna keep me amused for the rest of the weekxD
YAYY

that aside, got a lot of funny things too in class!
esp because there is ANOTHER HANNAH!!!!!!
ohfaints.
dont talk about it.
tell you another time.

As long as we want to be different from what God wants us to be at the time,
we are only tormenting ourselves with no purpose.

-Gerhart Tersteegen

But how can God bring this about in me?---
Let Him do it and perhaps you will know.

-George MacDonald

2006-05-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

it's like 12am now and by right, i should sleep cos there's competition tmr
even though it's not a major one, minor in fact... still need to rest la i guess.
i mean it IS competition after all. but ohwell. got work to do! faints.

you know what..
sometimes i wish my brother would just take out the warcraft cd after he is done
but the only time he is done is when my mother screams at him, and then he just hurridly switches everything off and leaves the cd inside.
AND THEN.. AT NIGHT, when i wanna put MY own cd inside to listen, i got to eject the warcraft one out and the ugly face is like really ugly and freaky and i really hate it
it looks super scary la. but it's like blue.. makes it look even more 'neither here nor there' GRR. it ruins my life.

but that is just one small thing la
yesterday, after one star kayaking, i met yishan huishan cherie darinne for lunch! i can say those four names as easily as BASH! hahhaa. so maybe we dont need a collective name anymore! xD hahaha. anyway we ate at nydc and it was really nice having us sit at the same table and talk again... even though there was just so much to catch up i kinda didnt really know where to start and i was like really tired but nvm.. and though i think we've all grown a lot over the past few months, some things never change la huh.. xD and i still love you all alot=))

okay
im like really tired.
goodnight!
let's pray we dont cap tmr and that we have a good time riding the backwash
that we'll finish the race happy and smiley and that we will remain focused all the time!
im sure we will.
and im not being sarcastic
YAYY SHAWNA.
ALL THE BEST TO US! AND EVERYONE COMPETING TMR!
=))

2006-05-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

you say you want ALL of me
i wouldnt have it any other way

i've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA!
i wanna know
i wanna know you today
cos you're the best thing that has happened to me
and the world will never take
and the world will NEVER TAKE YOU AWAY!

was just blog hopping like i usually do on Sunday nights
and then i came across gina's blog
and she was blogging about her cca, and on and on about it(which is odac)
and then i suddenly realised that just last year, every time she blogged about her cca(which is guides), i would totally know what was going on and i even knew all the in between stuff that she might have skipped or missed out on (since gina blogs rather randomly) and i could FEEL it too!
but now, it's like i can only imagine what fun she's having =(
and then i realised it kinda like applied for the entire ph11
and i miss the times when after like some BIG event(like AA and FAREWELL), everyone would rush home to blog and upload pics and then i'll blog hop and read everyone's reflections and steal photos and just get super happy and high ALL OVER AGAIN! =D
actually, didnt need to be a big event, just like some successful and pro firelighting session.. and we'll all be commenting on how dry our punk was and our 'damn chio fire' and then at the end of it all, it would be about how much GUIDES ROCKS!!

haha those were the days mann..
x))

2006-05-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

the past few days, i got THREE things that whenever i think about, i cant help but feel really happy and touched and loved=))

THING NUMBER ONE:
huiting voted for me for council!

actually she told me quite some time ago.. and i dont think she'll ever ever read this, but yea.. i was just really really very touched!
cos like mark was saying if you divided all the total number of votes there could be by the number of pple campaigning, each campaigner would need like 90 sth votes. and i was like "!!!!! i cant even think of 90 sth people who would vote for me!" and he was like "lower sec class, upper sec class, house pple.. can already what.." and i was like "!!! who in my lower sec class would vote for me! i hardly talk to them anymore.. except for like alison olivia michelle and avonne??"

yea.. and then later when huiting told me she actually voted for me, even though we havent talked in such a long time or done anything for that matter.. i dunno.. just felt really blessed to have lower sec friends who still rmb you! thanks darling!

THING NUMBER TWO:
cos you know i lost my zen neeon like a month ago.. but i still dont dare to tell my parents cos it would be like inviting death?!?!?!? but anyway, i told my little brother la.. then a few days ago, he asked me like quietly..
little brother: eh. jie.. so the zen how?
me: [insert 'eeks' face] i dunno.. how?
little brother: we buy back la. then we split.. i got hundred plus.. you got?
me: yea.. i got. upstairs.
little brother: then okay la! so you go and buy okay?

and then i was like too overwhelmed to say anything cos my brother is JUST SO NICE! haha. i know you're jealous! and then i couldnt stop smiling the entire night cos i was so touched la! =D

THING NUMBER THREE:
avonne told me "i must say you' re one of the best things that has happened in my life, from (-[insert curly wurly infinity sign], [insert curly wurly infinity sign again])!!" hahaha. YAYY. then what's the best thing arh??

2006-05-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

THE FIVE OF US!

cherie. yishan. huishan. darinne. me!

ph11!

joo. sau. charmaine. me. cherie. gina.

sruthi. yishan. bren. avonne.

and liling who wasnt there..

prom pose! the flying kisses or blowing kisses one xD

i promise, i promise, I PROMISE!

ANOTHER prom pose! i think we got limited poses. HAHAH.

cherie and i=)

us! see the super pretty souvenir! hahaha.

yayy. i like. got furry wire too!

more of us!

even more of us!

and ALL OF US! so happy togetherrrrrrr!!

i dont think i blogged about aa06, but it was like super fun! and the deco, if anything, was super nice! silver. gold. stars and glitter. what else could you ask for??! =D

okay. i koped most of the photos from yishan's blog. and if it's not from there, then it's from her shutterfly! yayy. thanks darling!

hahaha. okay. im super high from looking at the photos!

at least we looked TRULY happy=))

okay

duh.

2006-05-03T16:36:00.002+08:00

i stayed home today
it felt really really good
and even though i know im missing out on the super funny recesses and super boring chem lessons, it's worth it!
seriously.
i think everyone should do sth like this once in a while..
and enjoy the peace and quiet that CAN actually exist in your house
and i enjoyed eating lunch at home, even though it's the same old thing my maid always cooks when im home. cos it's my favourite anyway=))
and so i slowly finished up pw.. and believe it or not, i kinda miss doing such stuff..
and in a way, i kinda miss RS.. =(
IN A WAY.
okay. i really do.
when we used to meet up and destress before another crazy week began.. and there were always so many things to talk about even though we saw each other practically everyday
and sara's house always always had nice food
and lego sets to look at
and dvds to watch!
and then there was mrs cheriyan.. who NEVER failed to overwhelme us each RS session!
and we always really really tried to concentrate, but hardly succeeded and when we did, i think we like went around in circles. HAHAHA.
okay la. not so sad..
but yea.. those were the days mann.
RS was fun cos of avonne and sara!
but PW's gonna be fun too!
so cant complain..

anyway, i was looking at the quotes in that gp thick stack of notes thing..
found some hilarious and interesting stuff...

Being a woman is a terribly difficult trade, since it consist principally of dealing with men. -Jospeh Conrad

I think, therefore I'm single. -Lizz Winstead
faints. hahahaa. this is super FAINTS.

okay. that not im against guys of course..
just that some of them really.. HAIYA.
sighs and faints.
-think ytd eunice and alvin!
xD

hahahaa. im listening to 98.7 now!
the mother's day thing is super cute!!!
hahahahaha xD
must go listen!
it's like girls imitating their mothers! SUPERFUNNY!

2006-05-03T16:36:00.000+08:00

2006-04-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

I'd rather have had bad times with you
than good times with some one else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm
than safe and warm by myself

I'd rather have hard times together
than to have it easy apart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

i've started listening to the radio again recently=)
and the songs are much better compared to last time
or maybe because i can alternate between like 3 stations, so there should be sth nice to listen to right? yea..

anyway had discipline tea session today
faints.
i think it's just to go there to listen to pro people express themselves in the pro-est ways
like okay. i cant really rmb right now.
but yea.. haha.
just like that.
but can la.
rj discipline is still rather okay to me. so yea. nth much..

and then i went down and met sara michelle charlene and val
and they told me the best news ever!!!!
ohMANNNN.
like they made me guess?!?!?!
and i guessed like "she talked to daniel??? went for cca?? danced?? cried???"
before finally finally guessing the life-changing thing she did!!!
YAYY BREN!!
really really happy i couldnt stop smiling!
guess all our prayers (though not consistently fervent..) did work!
and really!
=D
life rocks.
GOD ROCKS.
what else can i sayyyyy..!

haha. it rained today.
and then i came home and tried doing maths tutorial.
but i really dunno how to do.
so im here now!
hahaha

2006-04-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

life has been okay
God's giving me peace..
and somehow i dont really feel like talking
i have no idea why!
i mean i can just walk around lost in my own thoughts or just enjoy the fact that im alone
it sounds a bit weird i know.. cos it's been going on since like the council-canoe dilemma which was like a month ago!
ohwell

anyway.. i got full marks for pft!
YAYY
okay fine.
i know one million of the girl canoeists also achieved that, BUT the last time i did it was like in sec2 i think.. and it's been a long time..
yea.. so i guess pe is the only thing im excelling so far!
FAINTS
the rest.. dont talk about them mann..
hahahhaa
that's why im gonna study hard tonight..
and like put more TIME into my work!
i do put in effort, i mean each time i do, i make sure its got standard k.. BUT i only do homework like 3 times a week.. so obviously not enough
eeks.
hahaha

anyway, highlights of the weekend:

sumin and i did k2! again! with both seats on and we only capped like twice at the pontoon and once a little further out! to me it's like rather pro la. but HAHA. anyway it was super fun! and we rowed to the 250m mark and back two times! without capping! xD
went for ri01 campfire! which rocked like madd!! it was super duper good la k. and really worth all the effort and more and yea.. really happy for them that it all went well..
small cell, big cell on sunday =))

okay. that was like super short. but haha. dont care.

anyway picture from gina's blog!

YAYY.

me. avonne. gina. yishan.

so happy together! =D

2006-04-23T19:31:00.000+08:00

sighh
i am like still trying to do PI?!?!?!
and the longer i take, i have the feeling the EVEN longer i'll take!
ohfaints
this rocks

anyway.. ytd was super tiring!
during training, sumin and i did k2 again!
hahaha. super fun i tell you..
and she has the stability of like 2 people!??!
so even if im super unstable and wobbly, it kinda doesnt really make much of a difference?! and we dont really cap anyway and i feel super secure sitting at the back and going 'left right left right left right..' hahaha YAYY
of course our stroke and strength(the other two 'S's) and everything is still lousy like mad.. but haha. still very very fun! -nods-
next week we shall do with NO water inside!
hahahaa.
sigh mann this kinda thing must work to the top gradually.. let me tell you what we did:
with both seats on and 1/3 filled boat: cap-ed FIVE or SIX times at the pontoon -.-
with one seat on and 1/3 filled boat: to 250m mark and back 2 times i think.. and we didnt cap?? or maybe like once.. i cant rmb.. haha. but BUTT PAIN! eeks.
with both seats on and completely filled boat(we were sinking! haha) : didnt cap! okay. we only did at most like ONE circle. it was rather hilarious. BUT i have no idea how it looked like cos i sit behind.. but i think the front of the boat was like underwater?! faints..
then FINALLY...
with both seats on and 1/4 filled boat: we capped three times! i think it's quite pro la. but then again i really dunno.. just that i know while we went to the 250m mark and back two times, got some guys keep capping and swimming back. but then again, it's cos sumin and i paddle like super lightly while the guys DIG into the water like they're on a t2.. so ya.
ohwell.
we had fun=))
more tiring mentally cos got to concentrate, but it's alright!
hahaha
still fun!
yayy

okay la
that's about it..
this week a bit depressing..
but i got full marks for my pft.. YAYY.
but i failed bio and nearly failed econs.
life rocks.
but then the ruggers won sajc so i guess that kinda helped to end the week on a higher note=))
and rugby is really a violent sport and i think they are pro-er and more self-sacrificial than one million other games like soccer and.. hockey?
plus the canoe exco interview was better than expected.. or rather better than pga one.. not that impressive though i think.. but can la huh.

okay
PI.

2006-04-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

council results were finally out on tues and =))
im happy.
and i feel really liberated and free
just that it would be better if my mother was more supportive.. she was like "next time you dont get scholarship you better not regret.." that kinda thing.. but ohwell.
right now, i really have no regrets and im really not thinking about what could have happened anymore or asking all the "if if if..." kind of questions..
but i think i eventually will.. just not yet.. so yea..

anyway, thanks people!
B*A*S*H - avonne. bren. saralala. james(just put here la huh.. xD)
AID - cherie. yishan. huishan.
ph11 - gina. sau. sruthi. charmaine.
all the classes i've been in my life - alison. michelle. olivia. charmainepan. eunice. claire. nan. germaine. nikki. melho. carmen.
Z'UNIT - cynthia. xinying. glen. xiangjun. teddy. esther.
MR - jason! kevin! jem. weiquan. justina. mark. and one million more..=))
random - charlene. sirui.
and last but not least..
THE CANOEISTS - joo cheryltay javine vanessa shawna yangyang sumin jolene xinmiao siaurui amanda elisa siqi priscilla and the guys(go visit their blogg! ---> http://dontpissinthewater.blogspot.com) like shawn. benard. guoren. paul. jing cong. kenneth. and the rest - collectively. hahaha. sorry la.. but if i name all, some of whom i have yet to know personally, also no meaning right? yea.. and im sorry if i missed anyone else out.. i really didnt mean to and i can assure you that you still mean a lot to me!

i guess i cant thank all of you enough for the support and assurance and advice and love that you've given me the past few weeks.. i dunno what i would have done without it, cos i've never been so torn between two things like that before.. thanks for standing by whatever decisions i made even though i changed my mind so very many times in the course of like a few days!

it's been exactly two weeks since the interview results were out.. and i think i've been rather moody and keeping to myself and a bit weird lately but hahaa. and im sorry that BASH and eunice had to suffer the bulk of my stoning and getting lost in my own thoughts and non-responsiveness and everything.. but im okay now! at least i think so=))

there are loads of things to say, but i guess i just wanna congratulate the entire 26th student council! it's really not been easy.. and even if people dont see us working very hard with the campaigning or anything.. it was the entire thought process that was put into it, PLUS the stressing and getting nervous about the outcome and it's really been fun and a wonderful learning experience for me and i dont ever regret running! yupp. at least we can all say that we've campaigned before! HOW PRO. hahahaxD

life isn't measured by the number of breaths that we take, but by the moments that our breath away!

2006-04-16T14:17:00.000+08:00

i just got back from church.. and the weekend is nearly gone.. but it's been okay la=)
i mean on friday i didnt go out in the DAY (but i went out at night) and i spent like 4 hours learning chem bonding 2 and FINISHING my tutorial! tell me im pro. i worked so hard till i had a HEADACHE and cldnt do anymore work anymore! xD hahahaa. but it was quite fun la. cos i like writing(without having to think too much). and i quite like my handwriting you see..

anyway, went to look after the little children in sunday school today. they're super duper cute -heart melts- seriously.. so earnest and sweet! =)) yayy.

and i love my cell. even though new things can crop up within ONE week, it's alright =) im sure gen and i still love them alot right??

xoxo*hannah

2006-04-13T01:47:00.000+08:00

i'll meet you there
no matter where life takes me to
i'll meet you there
and even if i need you here
i'll meet you there...

ohmann. life has been so confusing lately...
and im hardly ever such an indecisive person!
ohfaints.
but nvm.. im surer now of what i want already=)
after so very very much deliberation!

you know.. we had a school-declared holiday on monday... and i've always always looked forward to holidays and resting and as far as i rmb, i always get to rest SOMEWHAT on those days, but this weekend was just absolutely CRAZY! i think im sitll suffering somewhat from the tiredness of it all, but okay la. can la..

anyway, SUNDAY WAS AVONNE'S BIRTHDAY!
im sorry i was so extremely tired and just the THOUGHT of campaigning and everything else was like completely ruining my mood (i think im starting to sound like brenda) --- actually i think it did for like a large part of last week, but anyway. we ate at food republic.. very unhappening. yes, i know.. but got nice prata xD and chocolate toast and ginger tea and hokkien mee and brenda had this breakfast set meal even though it was TEATIME! hahaha. then we went walking around! shopping la okay? brenda got a gold wallet! and GOLD is the new black and it's rather classy and pretty! so yayy. im happy for her?? hahaha. even though she owes me nearly half of my weekly allowance now... -LOOKS AT BREN! then we walked around the really really normal places which we used to do SO MUCH last year we got so sick of orchard (rmb?) but now going downtown just to have fun and waste time has become a really special treat and i miss the buzz and vibe of simply orchard road!!(j8 lacks it disgustingly) and to quote cherie(which i think i have before.. hehh.)--- it's where we belong! face it, people xD

you know what.. i realised it was just before i said i needed to leave already, that we suddenly had like LOADS to talk about.. but yea.. sadly, i had to leave. maybe we should learn to treasure the times we spend together, i know the four of us prob see each other more than most other sec sch cliques do now in jc, but still.. the fact that we're in FOUR DIFFERENT CCAs already changes a lot.. but ohwell.. that's life. at least our recesses tend to clash! and tmr's thursday! YAYY.

-fast forward to training on monday morning-
hahhaa. madness. sumin and i tried k2 together. HAHA. i think we laughed too much, even though it wasnt even a lot in the first place, but everyone (at the pontoon, that is) was being rather serious and all.. hehh. eeks. but haha. it was fun!! like super fun! yayy. i like. a lot! that's about we did.. oh. and we ran 4km. also fun la huhx)) then lunch was fun too! and everything else! as always! and that is why CANOE IS LOVE.

-fast forward to monday evening-
went avonne's house and we did the normal stuff.. like LOOK AT PHOTOS! i think certain fotos you can look at forever and still have the same reaction! haahhahhahaa. it was super funny.. yes.. all our/your sec sch fotos! xD ohoh. and james lam called!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes.. all the way from australia! ohmann. he has an accent! it's SCARY. like really really freaky.. but hahhaa. should be still the same person la huh.. -GRINS-

okay. there is like a lot more to talk about.. but i really need to get down to chem tutorial!
ohwait.. one last thing..

avonne's PINK(duh!) present from BASH!!
okay.. in case you are like completely thrown off by too much pink, let me tell you.. it's a present! like a real present. i mean like airmail kind of present.. that's why there's the address and stamp and "fragile" and "pretty and priceless" and "if undelivered please return to BASH residence" hahaha. dont ask me where that is though! anyway most importantly, it contains A LIFETIME'S SUPPLY OF FRIENDSHIP. yea darling. love you loads!

okay. im happy=)

we're not here just to laugh with you, we're here to cry with you too..

xoxo*hannah
(it's always me anyway!)

2006-04-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

hey yishan cherie huishan darinne!
i really miss you all too.. sometimes it's just easier just not to think about it..
like yishan, the last time i talked to you was..? HOW ARE YOU?!?!?!?!
and huishan! even worse! i hope your practicals are all successful!! and you can actually see the cells.. and chloroplasts even, in the microscope and you ARE collecting some gas during chem and that at the end of the day, you arent running around copying smart people's answers! Haha. Just Kidding! ---Hannah Jason(Lau) Kevin(Long)!

yayy.

ohfaints. i feel super lame! but you have to admit that it's a super pro slogan RIGHT?!?!

and darinne.. school nats are coming up=)) i dont even know whether you're sitll competing and you prob dont even read this since right now, you're already preparing to sleep?!?!? but hope you're taking care of yourself anyway yea..
and cherie! thanks darling! for being there when i was just feeling super trapped and lost.. but im okay now.. cant wait to see YOU campaign! xD

we have to meet up someway somehow soon! hahaa. but realistically speaking, wont really be in the near future.. eeks. but i still love you all anyway! and i still doodle your names on my notebook! and i still imagine what you all would be doing or like how you would react, if only you were there! life isnt the same without you all in class and during recess, but i'll live=) yupp.

xoxo*hannah.

2006-04-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

hahaha
everytime i log in, i feel like changing the password! but i never get round to it! haha. but ohwell.

life's been okay. super tired. i really dont feel like doing much except sleep. just that there are maths and chem tutorials to do and i really want to work hard this year (remember?) and also cos like this weekend is gonna be packed AGAIN(!!!!) and i want time to relax instead of having to worry about undone homework.. so yea. NOW must work hard!!

anyway.. highlights of the weekend!

sleepover! yupp. jolene shawna vanessa amanda slept over to help prepare food for national joniors! i think we were super stoned. i know i was.. and we're all a bit loser when it comes to kitchen stuff, but lucky got amanda! and my maid! so yayy. then we watched tv and amanda did work until she fell asleep.. then we woke up at like 4am(mad, i know!) to spread bread?!?! hahaha. i feel a bit -.- thinking about it.. but HAHA.

canoe national juniors! ohmannohmannohmann i think i like completely forgot about the fact that canoeing is not just about who can paddle fastest, but also about balance and controlling the boat!?!??! i mean you can actually cap during the race! and everything is like so unpredictable.. i mean think about it, one moment you're like rowing rowing, and the next..
BOOM or WHOOSH or wtv, and you're in the water!! eeks. ohfaints. but hahaha. life's like that. and i know going for competition is supposed to inspire you and stuff, but it kinda also made me miss swimming a lot! i mean i chose canoe over all the other ccas cos i thought it was the closest to swimming.. but i think, now, the swimming world/arena thing is like really one-of-a-kind... you dont get that kind of parent-coach-friends support anywhere else!! not that im regretting anything la, just saying that's all=) but really, the ENTIRE competition scene and atmosphere was completely different! i mean for swimming, the moment you step into the competition venue, you can feel that buzz and excitement.. but canoeing kinda doesnt have.. but ohwell. it's alright=) then we were down there studying like mad. haha. must have looked like quite a scene.. but it doesnt matter..

small cell + passionfruit cell! went for service.. after a long time.. just that i was a bit tired and it was kinda hard to concentrate.. but nvm. good to see the girls again! thenn cell was not bad.. i think i still have loads to learn..

you know.. even as i sit and type this, i can feel my legs tingling a teeny weeny bit with pain..!! it's a bit scary, cos i NEED to recover in time for pft! ohmann..

anyway, i mugged bio from 8.30pm to 1.30am on sunday night! haha. i just had to write it down cos... cos, i think im not bad to have finished more than 4/5 of it in ONE night! xD hahaha. just that uhh.. results are another thing.. but AIYA.

cheryl said sth very true today during training!
"what's higher than manly?"
womanly.

uhh.. get it? hahaha. from cheryl lehhh xD
yea. that's just one of the many many things that we crap out during training!
the rest.. dont tell you! i mean you prob wont get it anyway hahahahhaa

ya la. that's about it=) yishan gave me candy today! and all of us too la actually.. it was rather fun carrying it around, for some reason i dunno why... nice long stick! and then everyone asked me where i got it from and what in the world it was! hahahaha. how cute.

okay. i think i've been a bit stoned lately. and i also think it's cos im shopping and movie-deprived. -shakes head- tsktsk. hahahaa.

2006-03-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

was eating purple jelly for dessert.. you know.. the "lousy" simple normal but nice jelly that looks super sad case but we still ate A LOT of it anyway, last year.. haha.
just suddenly remembered us sitting at the round table, commenting on the purple-ness of the jelly and whether it was soup spoon or metal spoon and sometimes people would take like TWO spoons and use, without even knowing it, or like really lousy jelly-eaters would like drop big chunks of jelly on the table.. and look real loser xD
hahaha. those were the days mann..
so fun!!
now rj doesnt even sell that kind of jelly i think.. haiya.

pictures! from cherie! hahaa

that's us in the mirror at taka stadium! try here, try there, i think pink and black still works the best for me! cherie likes brown.. xD

hahaha. pretty pretty! only lighting at coffee bean can give you this!!

btw i think i owe quite a few people birthday presents..
and there are also impt people's birthdays this friday!
eeks. ohdear.
***

ohhey. guess what. you all should go read our 6 october 2005 entry again! i mean it's huishan's.. but yea. it was written during the period when we were having the most fun and =)) *looks at cherie! -smirks xD

2006-03-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

HA.
the weekend has really been an eventful one and i really really loved it.
actually come to think of it, this week hasnt been that bad i think.
i mean we hardly had any homework, even though there were a few essays due and stuff.. but on the whole=) im happy

i know im a bit late, and the hype of it all might be over already, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY YISHAN AND CHARMAINE! =D

anyway, canoe camp rocked. yea.
one of the few times that i really really looked forward to something, and it didnt let me down!
i dont think it's really possible to describe everything here, cos it would be really hard to understand, but i just wanted to say that I LOVE YOU ALL! sometimes i think i love you is used a bit too often, but this time, it's really really very true. and even though we've just gotten to know each other like only 10 weeks ago, i feel like i've known you all for like forever and whenever im with you all, i know that everything, no matter how crappy or tiring will turn out JUST FINE =)) ahh. okay. i can go on forever.. but i shall not. you all know it. that's good enough already.

*xoxo hannah.

P.S. i really really really really really really really really really really (times one million more) miss BASH! it's feels super weird not having talked to all of you in a such a long time.. i dont even have a clue as to what's going on in each of your lives! and it doesnt help that you all dont update regularly.. and even when brenda does, it IS a public blog after all, and there's only so much she can say and i have to GUESS the rest. i hate guessing. but im guessing that you all are at least doing just okay. cos i dont get avonne running up to me during breaks anymore and everytime i look over she's happily chatting with her classmates or some random unknown friend so yayy. and sara and brenda, well.. i hardly see them around. but then they are together with all their friends at the arts central, so should be quite okay i guess. i think we're all moving on.. and starting to open up to the people around us, instead of just old friends. and that's a good thing la right? so =))

let's hope that week2 goes well and life continues to rock!

when all you need is LOVE*

2006-03-18T11:00:00.000+08:00

hahahahahaa.
it's saturday morning and im getting high reading cherie's entry about how much she loves us!
i tell you, practically EVERY entry is about that! xD
yayy.
and you know what. i love you guys too!
and im so glad we all made it for yishan's party ytd, even though some got training and some arent in the best physical condition but =)) love you all still!

and actually ytd after i FINALLY finished the guestbook and before i left for training, i blogged a little bit. but blogger wasnt working i think!
but anyway, yishan! i hope you like the guestbook!
i took an entire night(like after dinner till1 sth) and morning(like after breakfast to before lunch) to come up with it k!
madness la.
but as long as you like it, it's worth it=))
actually i like most of the time i was THINKING of ideas.. only like a few hours spent on doing.. -insert 'eeks' face here (i cant use it cos of this wierd template)- anywayyy, now i know why hallmark cards are sometimes so expensive even though they look rather simple and plain.. cos the card-designers probably spend like super ALOT of time waiting forwonderful inspiration, and since time is money.. yea. you get an expensive card.. x) haha.

anyway, that aside, last night was great! i know i had funxD
okay. let's try going in chronological order..

before that we had training.. and i was like rather excited and not in the mood? but haha. soon it was over la.. and then we cabbed down to the club, only to find that we were like one of the earliest?! except for yishan cherie and darinne la.. hahaha.

thenn.. joohui and i went to bathe! the bathrooms are super nice! even nicer than seetoh's house (duh) and yayy. i like! i think nice bathrooms can make you reallyvery happy! and guess what. just as we we came out of the bathroom and were crossing the lobby, the busload of people arrived! YAYY. perfect timing to the second mann! so pro. and then like when you see a WHOLE CROWD of the most darling people in your life ---avonne. sara. brenda. sau. sruthi. gina. charmaine--- come out of ONE bus, you dunno what to do! like who to hug first and say hello to first and stuff!?! so like WHOA. but anyway, gina! hahahaa. cos.. i used to see her practically every day of my life, but now.. seeing her ard is like once in a pink moon. so yea.. xD

okay.. then troop to KINGFISHER 1 and sign guestbook(this one everyone's super jealous i knowxD) and then basically we played games. and i think it was more of self amusement for ourselves and i know we were enjoying ourselves.. but i dont really know about the rest of yishan's guests(which mostly happen to be my friends too. haha) but ohwell. the most fun was taking photos! cos you know.. after everything that has happened since term started, at the end of the day, it's just US--ph11 and the five of us again! and i dunno. i just like the feeling, which happens to be rather hard to put into words..

anyway yishan, i hope you had fun! cos we definitely had fun planning, or rather making the invitations and guestbook and shopping for party stuff! games.. a bit impromtu la huh..HEHH. hahaha. but aiyaxD plus got behind-the-scenes, chocolate that cannot melt! ahaha. thanks bernard! for staying outside with the chocolate, when you should have been INSIDE! and then like cheryl and i got muscles! aaahahaha. i think the lighting in that bathroom makes it more pronounced.. cos when i went home, it was nost so o.O anymore! aahaha. yayy cheryl! i realised i still love you a lot even though we havent like hung out since bio fermentation and natday dance in sec3!

anyway, ytd was fun! cos i go to one table got darinne and huishan. then i go to another got all the guides in the world(that matter)!! then i go to another one, got gina melho and a million other HILARIOUS WILD people! so like =)) love is in the air! love is EVERYWHERE!! hahahahxD

you know, ytd while we were showering, joo and i were talking.. and i realised how completely contented with life right now.. like i dont want anything, and i feel like i dont need anything! (even though right now, what i NEED to do is get down and start on the essays!) i think it's like ever since fuiyi and joel got me the pink bag AND the orange alien, then i realised how much my friends actually love me, and when you have your friends' love PLUS God's love, i think you really have all that you need to live on already! i mean like what more do you want, anyway? 'things' just simply like fade away into the background of your life.. and dont matter that much anymore.. haha. okay la. to me la.

anywayy, just in case you got so caught up in the whole "HAPPY SEXY SEVENTEENTH YISHAN!" thing, her birthday isnt REALLY here until like 4 days! then got charmaine's too! two V.I.Ps! people, dont forget! xD

xoxo*hannah.

2006-03-17T10:51:00.000+08:00

yishan!
i finished your guestbook!
i hope you like it, it's rather pretty..
rather only but haha.
it's one-of-a-kind! what else can you ask for???!
xD

anyway i cant wait for later!
yayy. seeing EVERYONE again!
and i just realised that my bestest friends in the world, since the beginning of time(actually this one only refers to like avonne and sara?), will all be there!
cos i realised that yishan's and my social circles overlap quite abit!
YAYY.
but first, i have to get through training..
eeks.
but nvm..
im still looking forward to it=)

ohmann. yishan, you better like the guestbook..
i took the entire of last night and this morning doing it..
actually i spent more time waiting for inspiration to come than anything, but STILL...
hahahaha.
now i know why hallmark cards, even though they might look rather plain, are still so expensive..
cos the person might have taken eternity coming up with the simple and pretty and sweet idea.. so it's like worth a lot of $$ hahaha. yea.. cos time is money.
haha.
okay yupp. i hope we all have a whale of a time later then! and that all goes well, even though everything has been super last minute..

xoxo*hannah.

2006-03-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i really miss shopping! i havent shopped in such a long LONG time.. okay. i think i sound like some spendthrift freak whose idea of 'long long time' is like three days, but i think (i think) it's one ENTIRE TERM! i mean i cant rmb the last time i really really went out, not in school u, oogling and squealing at all the prettiest things in the world. and you know that i get excited over pretty things rather easily, but lately, it's like there isnt much to delight in and stuff..? i dunno.. and like even though i feel like shopping, i dont feel like spending money. mine or my parents'. cos i just keep thinking of all the other poor people out there, who would have A LOT more use for the money that say, i might spend on a skirt or whatever. sighhhh.

and i have NO INSPIRATION to do presents! or get them! like really dont have at all. grr. this rocks. GUESTBOOK HOW?! im like stressing over it, can u believe it?? sort of la. just you know what, what cherie said that day was super true --- four years of rushing projs and pts in whatnot in rg has taught us that, no matter whatever happens, how last minute it is, or how late you start or how hopeless everything seems to be, IN THE END, you WILL have sth to present and yupp. everything will turn out just fine! and i think that's like very very very true. -nods- like really. so yishan, whatever guestbook thing i pass you tmr, i hope it's nice and pretty=) in some way or another.

anyway, blogger isnt nice. i wish diaryx was back.

this past week has been super crazy. i mean i've been going out a lot. and i just started on work today. and i realise that there's ALOT to study for. tests here and there! grrr. i hate studying. the homework part i dont mind. but the staring at the notes and trying to get it into your head i really cannot stand!

okay.. let's see. start from one week ago la k.

thurs: band concert after training. not bad. got nice songs=) just went to see venetia and grace play la. after all, known grace for so long, but never see her play before.. so yupp. oh. and then before that, eunice and i rushed to j8 to get jarrodlee's farewell present. like IN VAIN?! was a bit excrutiating. come on la. it's like a well-known fact that there is NOTHING to get in j8... except for muji maybe?? -.- so then like eunice rushed down to spotlight (feeling really really scared cos she got no confidence in getting presents..haha. and she was scared she'll mess up and everything..) and got this nice blue pillow! yayy. she can like read my mind mann! so proud of her=))

friday: hung around until it was time for council briefing.. yupp. i signed the form to run. i prefer to say it that way. rather than "i've decided to run for council". haha. yea.. and im just gonna commit this entire canoeing-council thing into God's hands.. so whatever he thinks is best for me, i will go with it=) though i really really love canoeing!

saturday: training first. then we had canoeing party-like thing at seetoh's house. and i used to think that seetoh was quite cool since it can be a surname AND a name. but oops. it's his surname. anyway, the bathroom was heavenly. and you can sleepover there and never want to come out. and his sister is super adorable and intelligent(it's worth going to his house just to see grace!!) anddd.. yea. basically we played a lot of icebreakers until it was time to go home. HAHA. but nvm la. i think the main aim of getting to know the guys' team was accomplished so yupp. very good? hahaha. i love us girls, and i hope the guys can say that about themselves and their team soon!

sunday: sec1 cluster outing to sentosa. i love gen. we're the best leaders with the best team. and we like taking bus!=)) good. very good. but i think somehow, we were all rather tired and un-high and the weather was crazily hot, but i think the sec1s enjoyed themselves nonetheless. so yayy. then fuiyi and sara and i squeeezed into two seats on the bus(how pro!) and we just talked about stuff.. and yea.. it was good=) after that, rushed home to bathe and change.. then rushed to rg for guides campfire! the atmosphere was high and could tell everyone was enjoying themselves! so really happy for them too! then my patrol is really getting on very well.. and can see that they're enjoying each other's company, so yupp=)) im doubly happy! then of course, when guides get together, we always somehow have fun right? and so, even though it was just joo, sruthi, avonne, sau, brenda(5 out of 11?!) and even though it was probably for like 15min or so only, i think we were just enjoying each other's company and presence and the familiarity of it all! *hugs. then later i went to sleepover at avonne's house and we kinda just chilled and did the normal stuff like chat online and look at photos until it was time to sleep!

monday: training and then we had dinner!
tuesday: RS-revisited(as avonne calls it)!! and then met cherie!
wednesday: training and then met cherie..

today: went for facial in the morning. and then i just did work and slept! hahaha. bio tutorial took super long... because i like doing! but then now got like two essays and loads of tests to study for and i really must work hard this year... cos i rmb making that resolution LAST YEAR! so yupp. must keep! ahaha. doesnt make sense laa. but doesnt matter.

xoxo*hannah

mid week ramblings

2006-03-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

ohmann. econs is the crappiest thing ever! i feel like im just going around in circles and more and more circles! and all the explaination is more or less exactly the same. which makes it rather pointless to keep writing and writing it question after question!

and im moving at a super slow and unproductive rate. but it's okay la. i just happen to have loads of thoughts today, then super distracted. but nvm. no hurry. im still really awake and it's not even 12 yet..=)

sighhh/ i really dont feel like doing econs anymore.. i feel like i can do it WITHOUT studying! i mean like we could have answered it in secondary sch that kinda thing... at least when u do chem, you feel smarter, cos you know you've learnt and are learning new things.. but econs... ahh. -shakeshead-

anyway i've fallen back in love with the egg song!! =D go iloveegg.com to hear! if you've forgotten how cute and happy the song is and how smiley and =)) the eggs are! okay. fine. anything.

this week has so far been rather nice and smooth-sailing! yayy=) praise God!!

oh. ytd when i was playing God Will Make A Way, came across some really meaningful words for the first time.. even though i've played that song from the score quite a few times.. it's what the the singer SAYS, instead of sings.. haha.

God's word tells us that all things work together for good to them that love God and are called according to His purpose. And i believe what the enemy has intended for evil or bad in your life, i believe that God can turn it around for good, and make a way where there seems to be no way.

You may be going through a situation tonight that seems hopeless, and you think that God has forgotten you. But He hasnt. His word tells us that He has inscribed us on the palm of His hand. And He's able to do exceedingly, abundantly above all that we could ever ask or think. He can make a roadway in the wilderness and a river in the desert. He'll make a way where there seems to be no way.

so comforting. yayy=)

anyway, it's the second last week of the term.. if you havent been working hard the entire term, it's not too late to start now and end the term on a high or highER note.. besides, it's the start of a new month! a month full of birthdays AGAIN! anyway, it's also a chance for new goals and resolutions! hahaha. or you can just go day by day, like eunice and i! it kinda works i guess.. xD

cant wait for the holidays! cant wait to go out with ALL OF YOU! (you know who you are)

love**hannah

there are boundaries we pass in spite of war, but our own we can't seem to cross

2006-02-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

how does one know where and when to draw the line?

how far is too far? how much is too much?

how can one enjoy without crossing the line and without being too aloof?

how can i know?

yay-ness!

2006-02-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

havent had a proper updated in pretty long.

eddison jus told me diaryx died. like forever. AHHH

there goes 4 years plus of entries :( i didnt back anything. AT ALL.

~~!#@&$%~~

ok nvm.

on a brighter note. went for d feste last night with 6d. yes. my class is happening!

before that, went for dinner with them at pastamania. and shopping with larissa libing and yunlin. though yunlin didnt buy anything. haha.

bought slippers, earrings and hairties! ((: now libing larissa and i have the same earrings and matching hairties toO!

yay. we rock! XD

d feste was pretty good. but quite dry at some parts and it didnt really flow. and it was freezing cold.

but dont regret going lah. i mean. rj drama feste.. must at least go right?

went for haircut today at salon orient (as usual!)

that place rocks lah. cut, wash (with massage!!), style! and they are so good lor! the hair scalp and neck massage is like totally relaxing lah! (:

yesyess. i love today!

in contrast to ytd which was weird. damn weird.

aiyah. dont know what to say about ytd. >.<>.< as in they're not collected.. but stilll...

and tests are coming up!

2 more weeks til march hols.

2 more weeks til mac.

2 more weeks to get so many things settled...

(oh. hv i mentioned i jus acquired my fourth pair of shoes? haha. im a fair consumer. ive got nike, wilson, asics and reebok. and used to have new balance. jus nv tried adidas. anw. those shoes are cos my mum bought but realised they're too big. so now they're mine! XD)

BANANA BOAT ROCKS MY BOAT TOO!

2006-02-25T11:18:00.000+08:00

it's the weekend.
i dunno whether to rejoice or moan..
only two weeks left to the end of term one.
so fAST.
-shakes head-
maybe i should stop assessing my emotional condition
ohmann
this post sounds depressing

nvm
on a lighter note,
canoeing currently rocks like maddd!
YAYY
im glad.
hahahaa. like what yangyang said "BANANA BOAT ROCKS MY BOAT!"
xD
so funny.

oh. this week got other funny quoteworthy stuff too.
esp this one.
xue hao (telling adrian to like aim high and not give up): you should reach for the stars, because even if you cannot make it, then you'll fall on the clouds there. hannah: uhhh... HUH?! isnt it 'reach for the moon...'
avonne: 'for even if you fall, you'll land among the clouds.."?????!!
hahahhahaa. i think here not funny. but the way xuehao said it, it was like he was so proud of the fact that he had some nice quote to say.. and he like actually believed it was correct and made sense, but actually it was like wrong?!?!
HAHAHAHHA.
faints.
yea.
that was super hilariousxD

thenn.. got other stuff too i think. but i cant rmb.

on thursday, eunice and i paid attention in EVERY SINGLE lecture and tutorial!
ha. so proud of ourselves!
it was a good feeling k... of accompishment and satisfaction!
hahaha. yayy eunice!
^5 darling!

as we rise on EAGLES' wings...

2006-02-19T22:00:00.000+08:00

im here again!
finally got into the studying mood after like dunno how longg
im tireddddddd.
sighh
and i think sometimes we think too much and forget to feel
and sometimes we feel too much and forget to think
and it's a bit hard to balance and that makes things really annoying
yea. annoying kinda encompasses everything.. usually..
okay
i dont care.
i shall make this weekend(or whatever that's left of it) a WORK-productive one!
yes!=))
okay
yayy.

-hannah

life rocks.

2006-02-19T21:40:00.000+08:00

hmms. last post was quite extreme. i was sad, and stuff. feeling quite extreme.

sry.

but much better now (: thanks cherie darling! ((:

went queensway with my mum today. boughtSIX funky hairties! 2 glittery silver, 1 glittery black, 1 glitterey light blue, 1 pink and 1 purple! yay! I LIKE!

using pink and purple tmr! XD haha.

and i bought a pair of Asics running shoes! the asics designs not v nice. but at least they're good? i hope?

then wanted to go buy uniform. went there cos libing told me blouse got stock. in the end they still didnt have my size :( wasted trip.

but yes. i <3<33 shopping! cheers me up totally.

retail therapy (:

there's still loads of stuff i wanna buy. like all those sports bags! lotsa sports bags arnd nowadays.. then there's still those casual shoes!

and well. clothes clothes and more clothes! (: tops, skirts, dress tops, belts etcetc! sheesh. im making myself excited for nth.

going out for dinner tmr! (: like most probably lah. with the odacians. group 1 rocks! we're damn enthu and damn on!

hmms. i really should stop slacking so much. >.< like i didnt touch anything in my file the entire weekend? other than odac consent form to get it signed. sheesh. i'll so regret this when tests come. which is real soon.

<3, yi shan.

-

2006-02-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

if only i had known.. if only i knew what happened.

things might be different.

but i guess.. hmm. idont know

i dont know whether to feel touched or just sad.

i dont know how i should feel now.

i dont know what i should do now.

i dont know how i should react.

i dont know if you know.

i dont know who knows.

i dont know.

i dont know how i feel.

but if i dont know. who would.

i guess it takes time.

yi shan.

just because he lives!

2006-02-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

just got back from cluster meeting for like j1s and above?? hahaa.

i dunno. anyone can go la! just old enough can alr..

yes.. we're joined the old pple gang or wtv..

>.<

no longer with the secondary sch pple..

but anyway it was good=)

and like sometimes during the week you feel so detached from God cos everything is just too overwhelming and it's hard to rmb that he's always there for us and we dont have to wait for things like cluster meeting and sv and cell and service or even qt, just to hear from Him or feel Him, cos actually he's always waiting for us to talk to Him and tell Him all our troubles and stuff.. yea.. okay. i know. very basic. but still difficult to keep in mind.. but we're learning=))

yea.. so went there with james and yihan and nikki who met us at s11.. then we cabbed. cos we were late.

cos before that we went for talentime.. which was not bad at all!

hahaha. yuppp.

quite worth going la.. even though i think the winners completely did not deserve to win but nevermind. was quite fun. PLUS i got to catch up with abbyyy! =D yayy. havent talked to her in such a long time.. always a little bit here and there only.. but ohwell. cant be helped.

then before that was just hanging ard and doing work and feeling kinda = but what to do... this week has as usual, been full of ups and downs..

i think we started off like really high and happy cos of vday then like "love is in the air" then like towards the end.. dunno.. tired plus things get complicated and annoying.. and then u dont really know what to do or dont really want to do anything about it or you just wish you cld stay in your own happy world but u cant. then SIGHHHH. high and low, high and low.. -shakes head- faints.

life rocks.

dunno la. it's really hard trying to balance between spending time with the class and old friends! like >.<>

yishan.. really sorry to have to put you through all the annoying and confusing stuff.. most of the time i really dont know what to do or how to help so i like JUST DO?! ahh okay faints. that rocks. i know i know. but nvm. today you got nice smelling flowers which are super pretty and the ribbon was in your favourite colours! =)) plus got me to escort you up to class and back down even though it was rather >.< la=")

avonne! time to bring your focus back to the things that matter! eg. WORK. yes darling.. what you want to do, might not be what you need or should be doing! ahh. okay i dunno. what to do already.

because he lives

i can face tomorrow

because he lives

all fear is gone

and because i know

i know he holds the future

and life is worth the living

just because he lives..

xoxo hannah